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wow there is so much stuff going on in my life that i have been so busy. okay i have a lot on my ming and i need to get it all out. well here it goes. do you ever get the feeling that you wish god wood answer your deepest prayers and then you get nothing not one measly answer. well i thought that too until i had a god moment. meaning that a time in your life you feel extremely close to god that you could touch him. yea i no this is religous but come on i have to talk about it sometime. when i reliezed how much god is there for me i new that i had nothing to worry about, i mean everything happens for a reason right>>>>>????? like me losing my brotheres and sisters (but being able to tlak to them tons of miles away), losing my mother (not that i really didnt mind losing her) or not even knowing my dad?? is the simplest things in my life that i take so seriously because i dont want to lose anything more, but then my grandma died when i was 3 or 4 and my dad left my mom and my mom was put in jail cuz of prostitution yup she was....and to think about it....it has made me who i am today. i really wish i could be there for so many ppl that it hurts when they leave me and they think that they can just go ahead and hurt people. well i have been hurt to many times and i wonder...why is god doing this to me??Well easy BECAUSE ITS WHAT HE HAS PLANNED OUT FOR YOU....yea maybe losing a few friends here and there and a family member is all good. sure why not.....i just hope that you all will understand why i am so sad all the time and easily serious. i just want you all to no that i love you all and utters too!!!!!!
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sam
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sam