Rikku walked back to the dorms in a fog. Gone. Really gone. Okay. She was okay.
Hey, these were hallways. Hallways were good. She should walk around a little. She couldn't go back to her room yet. She'd been living in h-his for ... for a w-w-week and ...
She was looking in doors and being nosy. Probably. She couldn't tell. It was. Yeah. Probably.
Hey, Dawn's room. She leaned on the doorframe and suddenly felt so tired. Shouldn't interrupt her, Dawn was reading and ...
"Yea--" Dawn glanced up, smiling at Rikku's voice until she put the voice with the posture and... "What happened?"
She scrambled off the bed and went over to her, not sure she should touch. The last time she saw someone who looked like Rikku did now, she'd had to help her older sister get cleaned up and dressed.
"Wow, you're a bad liar," Dawn said with her typical empathy, as she decided to risk it and hug Rikku. "You're not going anywhere. Luke brought dip and I have plenty of tissues."
Rikku squeezed on to Dawn, shaking a little and the hell with it, with trying not to cry and pretending she was okay and ... "J-j-jude. Home. Mom. Had to. Sick, and ... just now, and ..."
She squeaked with alarm (and from being squeezed), then hugged on tighter once she realized what had happened. "Okay. Okay. No talking for a little bit."
"Y-y-y-yeah," Rikku managed, then shook harder and dammit, she was just going to sob, wasn't she? "S-s-s-sorry," she said, because they were hanging out and she was being stupid and ruining it and oh she wasn't supposed to talk. Right. Okay. No talking.
"Was kinda wandering," she said, settling in to Dawn's shoulder, "a-a-and didn't want to ... 've been staying in h-h-h-his room? All week, and didn't want to ... back to mine just yet 'cause ... 'cause that kinda means it's ... r-real."
"Th-th-thanks for ... sorry I'm ..." Rikku shook her head. "Did I, like, piss off the universe? I keep ... and then I keep crying on you and I'm gonna get all your shirts all gross at this rate and this whole stupid month has been ..."
"My shirts can all be washed, so just shut up about that," Dawn told her, "and this isn't pissing off the universe--that actually sucks worse than this, if you can believe it. Which doesn't mean that we shouldn't declare an end to October right now. We'll just call the next couple of weeks like, Larry, or something."
"Maybe I have and you don't know it and this is just the start and how do you apologize to the universe? Except what if I don't wanna? Stupid universe and it only ever did mean stuff to me and maybe it's its own stupid fault that I pissed it off and I don't care and I'm not gonna apologize and ... and ... do you think Larry would be better? Than October?"
"I think maybe you can't apologize, but being nice to other people helps?" She suggested, feeling uber-lame. "It sounds like Larry would have to be better than your October, honestly."
"I don't think it could get much worse," she shivered. "I thought I was nice to people. I even helped Sokka at Homecoming so he didn't wear the pimp-thing. Maybe the universe is mean and I'm supposed to be bad to people."
And, see, that was where Dawn had a hard time convincing someone that no, of course the universe didn't suck, and it wasn't really out to get her. "I don't think that's right."
Hey, these were hallways. Hallways were good. She should walk around a little. She couldn't go back to her room yet. She'd been living in h-his for ... for a w-w-week and ...
She was looking in doors and being nosy. Probably. She couldn't tell. It was. Yeah. Probably.
Hey, Dawn's room. She leaned on the doorframe and suddenly felt so tired. Shouldn't interrupt her, Dawn was reading and ...
"D-dawn?"
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She scrambled off the bed and went over to her, not sure she should touch. The last time she saw someone who looked like Rikku did now, she'd had to help her older sister get cleaned up and dressed.
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Wow, she was also failing at talking.
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