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I hate feeling pathetic.
Being neurotic about something is bad enough without the embarrassment of realising you're doing it and not stopping yourself. I think this all stems from being a natural worrier. I worry about everything. Particularly when it concerns someone I really care about. Another thing is that really caring about them means i also really care what they think of me. I don't want to be like this but I guess I'm still learning. I can't take back anything I've said and i have to deal with it now, whatever may come.
I need to learn to simply enjoy things. To just live my life and not rely so much on others to make me happy. That's actually advice I've given to someone before but i don't think I've ever carried it out myself.
Anyway.. This hasn't made me feel better but hopefully by tomorrow I'll feel more positive :)
Xx
Being neurotic about something is bad enough without the embarrassment of realising you're doing it and not stopping yourself. I think this all stems from being a natural worrier. I worry about everything. Particularly when it concerns someone I really care about. Another thing is that really caring about them means i also really care what they think of me. I don't want to be like this but I guess I'm still learning. I can't take back anything I've said and i have to deal with it now, whatever may come.
I need to learn to simply enjoy things. To just live my life and not rely so much on others to make me happy. That's actually advice I've given to someone before but i don't think I've ever carried it out myself.
Anyway.. This hasn't made me feel better but hopefully by tomorrow I'll feel more positive :)
Xx