Angry? Srsly?
I just had a dream where it was a whole load of getting angry at people. I don't remember all the details but I was out somewhere with my friends, kinda looked like a pub, and I shouted at random people for various things.
I shouted at a priest for walking away from me, a girl for trying to take my picture, a guy for flirting with me, another guy for not giving me space to pass in a hallway, a teacher/something for making me feel guilty when I left in the middle of a talk... I can't remember any others. That was weird. It sounds crazy but I remember shouting at the priest more vividly than anything else. I was screaming and complaining about how rude I thought he was and how he shouldn't treat people that way.... O.o
Whenever the topic of anger comes up in conversations with friends, I always end up mentioning that I rarely get angry and it takes a lot to do that. Somehow I grew up feeling like it would be wrong of me to get angry so I just never really stood up for myself. As well as this served in me taking on the role of "peacemaker" with my friends, never being angry meant never telling someone what I really think in difficult situations. Recently I've been far more up front with people about how I feel and even though that's great for me in some ways, I sometimes worry that I'm being too blunt or will just end up upsetting someone for no reason. But here's the thing, I actually quite like getting angry when I'm sticking up for myself and not letting someone push me around. It feels great. The times when I cave in and say sorry for something that doesn't feel like my fault, I get so frustrated.
I dunno if it was the dream, or the hangover, or the slightly emotional text I was sending last night, or the fact that I slept with my arms above my head... or that I can't seem to do lie-ins properly as this is the third day in a row that I've woken up at 9 without an alarm... but I'm feeling pretty tense today..
I went out with a couple of friends to the park yesterday though and that made me feel great :) should do more of that. BRING ON THE SUMMER!!
xxx <3
I shouted at a priest for walking away from me, a girl for trying to take my picture, a guy for flirting with me, another guy for not giving me space to pass in a hallway, a teacher/something for making me feel guilty when I left in the middle of a talk... I can't remember any others. That was weird. It sounds crazy but I remember shouting at the priest more vividly than anything else. I was screaming and complaining about how rude I thought he was and how he shouldn't treat people that way.... O.o
Whenever the topic of anger comes up in conversations with friends, I always end up mentioning that I rarely get angry and it takes a lot to do that. Somehow I grew up feeling like it would be wrong of me to get angry so I just never really stood up for myself. As well as this served in me taking on the role of "peacemaker" with my friends, never being angry meant never telling someone what I really think in difficult situations. Recently I've been far more up front with people about how I feel and even though that's great for me in some ways, I sometimes worry that I'm being too blunt or will just end up upsetting someone for no reason. But here's the thing, I actually quite like getting angry when I'm sticking up for myself and not letting someone push me around. It feels great. The times when I cave in and say sorry for something that doesn't feel like my fault, I get so frustrated.
I dunno if it was the dream, or the hangover, or the slightly emotional text I was sending last night, or the fact that I slept with my arms above my head... or that I can't seem to do lie-ins properly as this is the third day in a row that I've woken up at 9 without an alarm... but I'm feeling pretty tense today..
I went out with a couple of friends to the park yesterday though and that made me feel great :) should do more of that. BRING ON THE SUMMER!!
xxx <3