just thinkin ..

[lilplaya69xx]

well .. today i did nothin ,.. so i have nothin to write about that .. anyway .. i was just sittin herr thinking readin my old entres and comments .. not alot of those.. becuz brain or meaghan does't wirte me no more .. so wuteva .. well anyway i met this kid greg ..who happens .. lol.. to be .. fabians friend .. well not really a friend but you kno .. but anywayz i thought that was funny .. i guess you can say we are friends with very deep benefits lol more like best friends .. but anyway .. i think i'm startin to like him alot .. i kno rie don't get to involed .. your gonna get hurt .. but i don't kno .. i might not .. but wuteva .. i not gonna go to far like i did in the otha one .. me n fab .. lol.. that was funny really thought i was goin to marrie him ... lol.. wow thats funny ..but anywayz more about me lol.. my back hurts ..mmmmm... i wonder why .. lol.. maybe becuz of the otha day/night/day ..like 8 times after eatch otha .. but i'm not gettin into that lol ... i kno you would all like to kno .. but you can't .. well brain i hope you make more of your silly comments .. i like readin them .. you make me laugh with little kittens jumpin around goin yea!!!...lol.. i worte that just for you .. i wonder wut time it is .. i think i had to do somthing i just don't remember wut it was .. hold on let me think .. thinkin thinkin .. thinkin .. (light blub) ding .. i didn't call meaghan back i think she wanted to chill .. umm wuteva i'll call her lata .. she might come ova anyway .. i like see her everyday now that were talkin .. i can't believe that i stop talkin to her just cuz of fabian .. he really fucked up my life .. but wuteva .. so i hear he is movin isn't that good .. greg told me that .. but wuteva .. speakin of greg .. he didn't call me today .. maybe becuz i've been online .. yeah thats right i got dile up .. doesn't that suck .. but there is good news about that .. i'm getin a celly so now you guys don't have to worrie about me being online wen you call just call the cell wen i get it .. that is lol.. i be sure to write wen i get it to let you guys kno .. ohhhh . i forgot .. memeber how i told you in the last entry about chris well .. now that i'm chillin more wit greg (oh yeah not miles' greg a different one) i havn't really been talkin to chirs i guess you can say that i gave up on him .. just a little .. i mean everytime i tell him to come up he neva does even though he tells me that he is .. maybe i'm not pretty for him ... but then again i think and the otha night i think yesterday .. night .. i was talkin to him and i ask him .. why did he give me another chance if i did wut i did .. (his best friend) lol .. he said that i knew but i told him i didn't .. the thing is if you don't kno he said that he neva gives girls another chance .. but for me he did .. do you think that it's love .. could it really be that .. i wish .. i don't think so .. but then agin he was kinda mad at the fact that me and greg where chillin the otha day 420 ha ha .. and he was like thats your boyfriend right and i was like no i don't go out wit greg we are just friends .. whitch is true .. we don't go out .. but chris i guess didn't belive me and made me yell out loud that i love him and only him .. i did it .. and then he was like ok .. and i was like i have to go cuz i'ma watch a movie witch i was doin .. and he got mad .. cuz i was like call me later or tomorrow and i'll talk to you .. and he was like oh i might be sleepin i was like yeah wuteva .. but anywayz .. i feel like wen i'm talkin to greg and chris calls i really want to talk to greg .. and i alwayz am startin to blow off chris .. but i don't want greg to feel bad about it if he is readin this .. it's not that bad .. but anyway i'm so confused .. i keep lookin at the good side on both of them .. cuz everyone knoes .. that i guess i can say i WAS inlove wit chris i mean i still am just not alot .. and now theres greg and i don't kno wut to do ..cuz i kno greg wants to take it slow witch i want .. but then again .. i want to be wit chris too .. but i don't think that is happenin .. to sum things up i want to be with both of them .. but i don't think that is goin to happen with ethier of them .. so from now on .. i'm goin to be singel for a while untill i find somone that i really like .. and get to kno them .. and have fun with them .. instead of fuckin things up like alwayz ...by movin to fast .. i kinda already did that with greg .. movin to fast .. i didn't mean to i mean .. i liked it .. but i didn't want to do that .. cuz now he prob thinks i'm a hoe or somthing .. so anywaz .. i'ma go and talk to you guyz later ..now i'm in a crummy mood cuz i can't stop thinkin about greg and chris and sometimes even though i don't want to i keep thinkin about fabian .. i don't kno whhy maybe it's becuz we spent to much time together i even catch my self talkin about him alot and so does meaghan and greg .. i mean i think it makes him feel bad wen i talk about fab . but i can't help it for the lasst 6th months i've been with fab .. everyday .. every min. so everything that i did then had to do with him .. i just cna't help it .. i'm tryin to forget that .. but anyway i'ma go ight talk to you guys later .. oh yeah got a new nick name
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meaghan you too.....
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