Joff
So today was Joff's Memorial service and i made it through with only a couple tears. After everything was done i came up to different ppl and gave them hugs to comfort then say its gona b okay. we're going to see him again. As i made my way thru the auditorium i came up to brooke and said mommy mommy. as i jokingly always do. we talked for a lil while and she said it doesnt look like u cried are u good at holding it in? i just responded with i have no tears. im finally at that point bc all the tears i cried were on sat and sunday. i took off after a lil while trying to find a new way home. i cant keep driving by debrecen. so as i took another way listening to the radio a song came on. it was talking about how i miss my friend how i missed the brown hair and the green eyes and his smile. i immediatly thought of Joff. all of a sudden my vision was getting foggy and the water works began. i miss u joff. its almost like i expect u to drive up in ur caddy. its almost like im waiting to jump in front of ur car again. so many memories start rushing thru my head. it just gets harder and harder to see. my ride from church and back will never be the same. april 2nd will never b the same. i kno ur having the time of ur life with Jesus. and i kno that im going to see u again. but no matter how many times i convince myself that i cant cry anymore, the tears just come back. Joffrey David Orr you r my hero. and i cant wait to see u again