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my family is still moving to nc, and leaving me here. i will either have to get an apartment or live with my moms friend karen. i dont know if im going to school next year, or if i am going to have to have to take a year off to work to support myself. i have no friends anymore because i ditched them all my senior year to spend more time with the love of my life. i appologize to everyone ive hurt because of this. and now, i seem to be doing everything possible to ruin what i have with him. i blow everything out of proportion and pick petty fights over nothing. he is all i have in this world, even more so when my family moves and leaves me here. to you duffy, i appologive to hurting you and jeopardizing what we have, or had if its too late. i just dont know what to do anymore. im not looking for pity from anyone, i just need to get some things off of my chest. to my friends, or those of you who are willing to try again with me, i am sorry and hope i can get a second chance. to duffy, same thing. im sorry for taking you for granted. to my family, i dont even know. i love u, but i cant do this on my own. not yet at least. i think thats it for now.