another stupid entry
took really long to update this... lots to finish for school so had no time...
the weekend was cool... spent most of it with the coolest cat in pitt.... went to church on sunday... i like how the pastor dictated my life to me (well not my life but he pulled at me)... whatever.. i dont have to go back there again for a while... sat was lazy day... though i got alot of work done... then i got my book light yea!!!! so i can read my romance ... i mean english articles.... umm... wat else... oh yes how can i forget sunday's dentist appointment... that was lovely... but very much needed.... happy it got done though...lol.....
So i cant get the notes in Open arms by mariah... and its so frustrated... i think this is like the 15 times ive listened to it... BAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA.... i use to be able to do it... i was... and then i stopped practicing... i havent tryin in like ... i dont know... 4-5 years... now i cant do it ne more.. ive lost my voice and it sux... well i never really had it in the first place.. but i sounded better than this shit.... a lesson to all... dont stop practice...practice makes perfect...ughhhh i will get it again....
i am just happy last week is over... wat an awful week... deal with test, and papers, and books, and stupid fuckers... but its all over now... still have work.. but dont have deal with the fuckers... i really need to mail my grandmother her b-day gift... cuz ...its in march.. which is pratically here..and i have to send it out.... then i have to find out wat book my mother wanted and get her that too... and audra's vidoes....ahhhhhhhhh too many things... just to add ...need to find my dad's phonograph...
of course one who would be reading this wouldnt know but i just called my good friend laura who was struggling over Physics... she has a test thurs... and i was actually very much help to her...im useful wadda know.... im glad to be of help... i really wanna finish this and go to bed.. and all the interruptions that can possible happen r happening... baaaaa.....
im listening to sunday morning now... lol... good song... lol... wont think about Mariah ba....
i love how this LJ entry is going no where... i know wat i wanna write about... but i cant write it the way i want... ummm..
. i think im starting to see wat a pain in the ass i am... well as some may put it.... but i cant change... my thoughts and beliefs are enbeded and wont be shaken...... yet... i see my self coming around a little... just a little... i want to pull back... but cant... im tryin really hard... its like i almost look for a way out... but i dont want too... i dont know... its werid... i guess i just dont want the same shit to happpen again... even though i know it probably will... im giving it two years... since that seems to be the lucky number... i dont want it too... but i know it will... people r people... no faith some say... yea... i lost that awhile back... i cant help it... i wish the world would give up on me... but its doesnt... funny how people never do get wat they want... oh well... according to jimmy cliff... only time will tell... dont know wat to do ne more... nearly tried everything... isnt it beautiful how u can pretend with some people but others see right through u... not really beautiful more like annoying... u think ur perfect at something.. and then some smart ass people come along and fuck u up... ur mad... but amused... i wish they would go away... but then u wish they will win... ur so confused.. u dont know wat to do... why do does it seem so simple... like its unbreakable...almost perfect...then reality sets in... its not really that serious... but its odd... reality is better... its real.. obviously... i dunno ne more.... blah blah blah....as the bitch complains some more.... im done... night kids
the weekend was cool... spent most of it with the coolest cat in pitt.... went to church on sunday... i like how the pastor dictated my life to me (well not my life but he pulled at me)... whatever.. i dont have to go back there again for a while... sat was lazy day... though i got alot of work done... then i got my book light yea!!!! so i can read my romance ... i mean english articles.... umm... wat else... oh yes how can i forget sunday's dentist appointment... that was lovely... but very much needed.... happy it got done though...lol.....
So i cant get the notes in Open arms by mariah... and its so frustrated... i think this is like the 15 times ive listened to it... BAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA.... i use to be able to do it... i was... and then i stopped practicing... i havent tryin in like ... i dont know... 4-5 years... now i cant do it ne more.. ive lost my voice and it sux... well i never really had it in the first place.. but i sounded better than this shit.... a lesson to all... dont stop practice...practice makes perfect...ughhhh i will get it again....
i am just happy last week is over... wat an awful week... deal with test, and papers, and books, and stupid fuckers... but its all over now... still have work.. but dont have deal with the fuckers... i really need to mail my grandmother her b-day gift... cuz ...its in march.. which is pratically here..and i have to send it out.... then i have to find out wat book my mother wanted and get her that too... and audra's vidoes....ahhhhhhhhh too many things... just to add ...need to find my dad's phonograph...
of course one who would be reading this wouldnt know but i just called my good friend laura who was struggling over Physics... she has a test thurs... and i was actually very much help to her...im useful wadda know.... im glad to be of help... i really wanna finish this and go to bed.. and all the interruptions that can possible happen r happening... baaaaa.....
im listening to sunday morning now... lol... good song... lol... wont think about Mariah ba....
i love how this LJ entry is going no where... i know wat i wanna write about... but i cant write it the way i want... ummm..
. i think im starting to see wat a pain in the ass i am... well as some may put it.... but i cant change... my thoughts and beliefs are enbeded and wont be shaken...... yet... i see my self coming around a little... just a little... i want to pull back... but cant... im tryin really hard... its like i almost look for a way out... but i dont want too... i dont know... its werid... i guess i just dont want the same shit to happpen again... even though i know it probably will... im giving it two years... since that seems to be the lucky number... i dont want it too... but i know it will... people r people... no faith some say... yea... i lost that awhile back... i cant help it... i wish the world would give up on me... but its doesnt... funny how people never do get wat they want... oh well... according to jimmy cliff... only time will tell... dont know wat to do ne more... nearly tried everything... isnt it beautiful how u can pretend with some people but others see right through u... not really beautiful more like annoying... u think ur perfect at something.. and then some smart ass people come along and fuck u up... ur mad... but amused... i wish they would go away... but then u wish they will win... ur so confused.. u dont know wat to do... why do does it seem so simple... like its unbreakable...almost perfect...then reality sets in... its not really that serious... but its odd... reality is better... its real.. obviously... i dunno ne more.... blah blah blah....as the bitch complains some more.... im done... night kids