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[lilpimpette055]

wow im goin to be gone for 2 weeks im leaving tomarrow fo r arkansas i come back the 15th...i sorta want to go but then again i dont cuz iono im not goin to go into it lol...umm today i went with joshs mom n we got our nails done together it was fun but also today i didnt do all the stuff i wanted to do like i wanted to hang out with just josh but we didnt at all by ourselves some1 was always there with us and then i wanted josh to stay the night but he "couldnt" cuz he had already asked lenny to stay with him that sorta made me upset cuz i really wanted to spend time with him before i left he says hes gunna make i tup to me which i hope he does that would make me feel good seeing that some 1 actually cares about me u kno not that many people go outa their way to make me happy but josh does sometimes which i love imma miss him sooo much u dont even kno its goin to be so hard not bein able to see him or maybe even talk to him like im used ot us bein able to talk and see each toher EVERY day man i hate goin 2 days without us even seein each other how am i gunna go 2 weeks man this is gunna suck i kno i seem pretty pathetic but oh well i love him so much i just cant ever get him off my mind he means sooo much to me im goin to go without the reason i get up everyday for a while im just scared that imma loose him while im gone i kno its only 2 weks but alot can happen in 2 weeks im just gunna hope for the best...i kno that hes al i been writing abotu i just cant help it i care bout him so much he means everything to me right now hes what i look forward to gettin up every morning...i love you baby if u read this...

well anyways imma try my hardest to get on and update it everynow and then but i doubt i get to alot cuz i dont have much access to a comp but i have a lil...umm if ya wanna call me imma be very bored but i dont get service most of the time but u can leave me nice voicemails so ill have somethign to do while im driving to tennessee ( i get service there)