Ooops
I missed Easter dinner. I didn't mean to miss it. I got out of bed and into the bathroom in plenty of time. I even shaved my legs. Where I went wrong was that I started to read a book when the Nair was on my legs, and I kind of got so engrossed in the book that I lost track of time. So, I got out of the shower and came out of the bathroom to see that it was 7:15, and I had missed 17 calls from my sister and son. 
Ooops.
I've already told everyone who called that I was sorry. I truly didn't mean to miss it.
On the flip side, I've had some truly reassuring responses to my previous entry that I wanted to share...
My sisters tell me that I deserve better than him, and he's an asshole for not realizing what a gem I truly am. I love them. They always know just how to stroke my ego.
Always on another plane is my friend... I love him for this response. It's too wonderful to do anything less than repost unchanged.
Wow.
Er...
I think part of your issue is that the emotional part of your brain is making decisions the more logical, cognitive part is going "WTF?" over and you haven't quite figured out why the emotional part of your brain is making these decisions...
...although, my bet is that the scent issue, the orgasm issue, and the level of emotional comfort you have around this guy are major factors. Somehow, this combination of traits has your emotional brain really happy and ignoring the logical parts.
I mean the parentheses...
...that's your cognitive bits using logic. The rest... is your cognitive bits trying to observe what you feel and apply logic to it...
...and fail--badly--at it.
Hmmm...
I would wonder--if you do remember--if you've dreamed about this much and what happened.
Then again, I also wonder if he's got similar dilemma...
...I mean, the staying away part, ignoring, but putting up with/seeking out some of what you talked about...
...sounds like a guy pulled in two ways too.
Hmmm...
And I don't see you as a particularly "sad, selfish, childish little creature". I just see you as someone who wants to be happy, get things right, and feel sure. The wanting is normal, the use of the "choir" as a validator when you are in conflict...
...that's common, just maybe not as directly.
*smirk*
Good luck, eh?
Do you see what I mean? It's a wonderful perspective!
Then again, my daily AstroSlam had some wise words today, too.
Dear Lilly,
Here is your AstroSlam
for Sunday, March 23:
Your passion could be mistaken for being a little psychotic today. Do you really think that showing up on someone's doorstep with items from their Amazon.com wish list is the best way to get them to love you? That's just creepy.
Isn't that hysterical??? My logical brain is having great fun laughing at my emotional brain just now.
Ooops.
I've already told everyone who called that I was sorry. I truly didn't mean to miss it.
On the flip side, I've had some truly reassuring responses to my previous entry that I wanted to share...
My sisters tell me that I deserve better than him, and he's an asshole for not realizing what a gem I truly am. I love them. They always know just how to stroke my ego.
Always on another plane is my friend... I love him for this response. It's too wonderful to do anything less than repost unchanged.
Wow.
Er...
I think part of your issue is that the emotional part of your brain is making decisions the more logical, cognitive part is going "WTF?" over and you haven't quite figured out why the emotional part of your brain is making these decisions...
...although, my bet is that the scent issue, the orgasm issue, and the level of emotional comfort you have around this guy are major factors. Somehow, this combination of traits has your emotional brain really happy and ignoring the logical parts.
I mean the parentheses...
...that's your cognitive bits using logic. The rest... is your cognitive bits trying to observe what you feel and apply logic to it...
...and fail--badly--at it.
Hmmm...
I would wonder--if you do remember--if you've dreamed about this much and what happened.
Then again, I also wonder if he's got similar dilemma...
...I mean, the staying away part, ignoring, but putting up with/seeking out some of what you talked about...
...sounds like a guy pulled in two ways too.
Hmmm...
And I don't see you as a particularly "sad, selfish, childish little creature". I just see you as someone who wants to be happy, get things right, and feel sure. The wanting is normal, the use of the "choir" as a validator when you are in conflict...
...that's common, just maybe not as directly.
*smirk*
Good luck, eh?
Do you see what I mean? It's a wonderful perspective!
Then again, my daily AstroSlam had some wise words today, too.
Dear Lilly,
Here is your AstroSlam
for Sunday, March 23:
Your passion could be mistaken for being a little psychotic today. Do you really think that showing up on someone's doorstep with items from their Amazon.com wish list is the best way to get them to love you? That's just creepy.
Isn't that hysterical??? My logical brain is having great fun laughing at my emotional brain just now.