The deffinition of idiocy is to do the same thing over and over and expect different results..
Well once again me and alex broke up because we got into an argument because he thinks that all i ever bring up is the stuff that happened between him and kendra or him and anna, so he got all pissed off and used the f-word like a million times sayin how i needed to stop talking about them and he asked me if i still wanted to be together and i said yes and then i told him but only if you have time for a girlfriend, if you dont have time then dont have one it's as easy as that, then i said so yes or no do you want to still be going out.. Well he said NO, BECAUSE I DONT HAVE TIME! tell me how fucking lame that is, what a blow to the heart. Especially after he said that he wouldnt hurt me again, that kid is such a fucking liar. I am done with him for good I'm moving on in my life and that's that, i'm tired of being hurt and being an idiot about him.. So yeah we're finished. It makes me really upset, i'm sitting here crying over somebody so stupid, he never really treated me right. Yea he did have time he just didnt want to make any of that time be with me and him it was always him and his friends or soccer or school or work. So whatever, I'm so hurt by this you have no idea, I'm just glad that this time i never told him i loved him back, atleast i learned one lesson from my last experience with him.
I really dont think i should let this bother me because this time we weren't even dating for a full week, the thing is that i never really stoped liking him the first time.. so this just adds on to everything that i've gone through all summer. Well this really sucks because i know that everytime i see him i'm goin to get a lump in my throat.. Anyways, i think i'm going to just stick with myself and my friends, i'm done with guys for a good long time. No more relationships equals no broken hearts. I also dont know why but when i found out about everything that him and kendra did i was really hurt just because she was one of my best friends and knew i still had feelings for him.. I dont know.. i'm just letting it go. kendra this dont mean shit between me and you ok, i'm not mad at you... Well I'm goin to go, i could go on for ever but this is a huge journal entry anyways so i'll just stop.. I love you all..
Pammy. :(
I really dont think i should let this bother me because this time we weren't even dating for a full week, the thing is that i never really stoped liking him the first time.. so this just adds on to everything that i've gone through all summer. Well this really sucks because i know that everytime i see him i'm goin to get a lump in my throat.. Anyways, i think i'm going to just stick with myself and my friends, i'm done with guys for a good long time. No more relationships equals no broken hearts. I also dont know why but when i found out about everything that him and kendra did i was really hurt just because she was one of my best friends and knew i still had feelings for him.. I dont know.. i'm just letting it go. kendra this dont mean shit between me and you ok, i'm not mad at you... Well I'm goin to go, i could go on for ever but this is a huge journal entry anyways so i'll just stop.. I love you all..
Pammy. :(