back at school
So I'm back at school now. My parents helped me move in today. It wasn't as busy as I thought actually. It was a sucky day though cuz I'm just really sore (my throat) and my ear is really bothering me (they said that was expected). I'm going to call Monday if I still feel like this though cuz the codeine/tyelnol medicine they gave me doesn't make the pain go away and its just horrible. I laid down an hour ago and just started crying cuz my ear hurt so much and my throat was still bothering me and I had an hour before I could take the meds again which I'm taking every 4 hours which is bad. At least I'll prob. lose some weight cuz even when I do eat soup or yogurt its still painful so I don't eat that much of it.
My room is actually all pretty much together. I just have to hang up/organize all my clothes. I got these bed risers from Target so I put pretty much everything under my bed which is really nice. I'll prob. do that after this entry cuz Marcco is on his way to come see me :-) I saw him last night and it was kinda interesting night. He got really upset cuz he felt rejected. I got to his house and he showed me the kittens their cat had a few weeks ago and then we went to CVS. Well I guess he felt like I was mad cuz I didn't hug him like I usually do when i get to his house (it just didn't flow since we went right upstairs to see the kittens) and then at CVS he was lookin for cancor sore medicine and I went to another isle to be lookin around for it and he thought I just kept walkin away from him cuz I didnt want to be seen with him. So on the way back to his house he asked me if I was mad or somethin and I said no so he said how he thought I was just bein distant or w/e and I said well I dont want to be all over you if u dont want me to. Cuz he always jokes around when we're layin together and i'll be lyin on top of him or kissin him or somethin that and he jokes like "man you're always all over me" or somethin like that and I just started thinkin ok maybe I should lay back and he doesnt like that so much. So we got back to his house and my friend Arno texted me and he called me Beautiful (like hey beautiful) so that got marco kinda upset too cuz he's like who's this guy and why's he callin u beautiful and its just like i hung out with this guy a couple months ago a couple times and we actually havent talked in like a month and nothin goin on.
gotta finish later, he's here!
Ok so anyways, he was jokin at first and bein like you dont wanna hug me, and stuff like that. So he went to sit on the couch by his parrot and I laid with him for a few mins but then he had to let his dogs out and after that he went on the other couch not back by me. So after a few mins I went to that couch and for the next couple hours I just tried not to cry. He wouldn't sit by me and wouldn't hold my hand or kiss me or just be like he normally is when we lie on the couch. After a while I just couldn't hold it in after he started talking and bein like I just don't like feeling rejected. I wasn't answering somethin he asked me cuz I was about to cry and couldn't talk and when he saw that, he just pulled me into his arms / next to him and held me and was like why the heck are you crying for me, i'm not worth that, and was like pam you know im depressed and thats why i act out sometimes and I just don't like feeling rejected and thats how I felt in CVS and we talked a lil bit but he just held me and everything was ok. I assured him goin away to school wasn't goin to make me stop wanting him and I wasn't going to do anything like cheat on him. So we went down to the basement and laid together watchin tv and fell asleep for a bit and the night ended well :)
So yea Marco drove up here around 8pm last nite and it was an awesome time even though my throat was sore and I wasn't 100% feeling well but he made me feel a little better for sure! I met him outside and we went to Greektown. It ended up bein Taste of Greece so I got some Saganaki and we went to Mr Gryos I think its called. I was actually able to eat a pizza puff, well the inside of it, so it was nice to get some food in me for once. We walked back to my dorm after and just watched tv for a while. Around midnight we felt like ice cream but the place downstairs wasn't open yet so we walked to 7-11 and he got an ice cream and a big gulp and i got a slurpee which kinda sucked cuz it was more liquid less slush lol. So we came back and watched more tv and dozed on and off and eventually just fell asleep in each other's arms :-) It was so nice wakin up next to him this morning (first time lol). Unfortunately he had to leave around 10:30am to go help his grandpa out today. Now I'm just bein lazy and still need to shower and I have to hang all my clothes up today. Not sure if I'm doin anything else but yea, ttyl!
My room is actually all pretty much together. I just have to hang up/organize all my clothes. I got these bed risers from Target so I put pretty much everything under my bed which is really nice. I'll prob. do that after this entry cuz Marcco is on his way to come see me :-) I saw him last night and it was kinda interesting night. He got really upset cuz he felt rejected. I got to his house and he showed me the kittens their cat had a few weeks ago and then we went to CVS. Well I guess he felt like I was mad cuz I didn't hug him like I usually do when i get to his house (it just didn't flow since we went right upstairs to see the kittens) and then at CVS he was lookin for cancor sore medicine and I went to another isle to be lookin around for it and he thought I just kept walkin away from him cuz I didnt want to be seen with him. So on the way back to his house he asked me if I was mad or somethin and I said no so he said how he thought I was just bein distant or w/e and I said well I dont want to be all over you if u dont want me to. Cuz he always jokes around when we're layin together and i'll be lyin on top of him or kissin him or somethin that and he jokes like "man you're always all over me" or somethin like that and I just started thinkin ok maybe I should lay back and he doesnt like that so much. So we got back to his house and my friend Arno texted me and he called me Beautiful (like hey beautiful) so that got marco kinda upset too cuz he's like who's this guy and why's he callin u beautiful and its just like i hung out with this guy a couple months ago a couple times and we actually havent talked in like a month and nothin goin on.
gotta finish later, he's here!
Ok so anyways, he was jokin at first and bein like you dont wanna hug me, and stuff like that. So he went to sit on the couch by his parrot and I laid with him for a few mins but then he had to let his dogs out and after that he went on the other couch not back by me. So after a few mins I went to that couch and for the next couple hours I just tried not to cry. He wouldn't sit by me and wouldn't hold my hand or kiss me or just be like he normally is when we lie on the couch. After a while I just couldn't hold it in after he started talking and bein like I just don't like feeling rejected. I wasn't answering somethin he asked me cuz I was about to cry and couldn't talk and when he saw that, he just pulled me into his arms / next to him and held me and was like why the heck are you crying for me, i'm not worth that, and was like pam you know im depressed and thats why i act out sometimes and I just don't like feeling rejected and thats how I felt in CVS and we talked a lil bit but he just held me and everything was ok. I assured him goin away to school wasn't goin to make me stop wanting him and I wasn't going to do anything like cheat on him. So we went down to the basement and laid together watchin tv and fell asleep for a bit and the night ended well :)
So yea Marco drove up here around 8pm last nite and it was an awesome time even though my throat was sore and I wasn't 100% feeling well but he made me feel a little better for sure! I met him outside and we went to Greektown. It ended up bein Taste of Greece so I got some Saganaki and we went to Mr Gryos I think its called. I was actually able to eat a pizza puff, well the inside of it, so it was nice to get some food in me for once. We walked back to my dorm after and just watched tv for a while. Around midnight we felt like ice cream but the place downstairs wasn't open yet so we walked to 7-11 and he got an ice cream and a big gulp and i got a slurpee which kinda sucked cuz it was more liquid less slush lol. So we came back and watched more tv and dozed on and off and eventually just fell asleep in each other's arms :-) It was so nice wakin up next to him this morning (first time lol). Unfortunately he had to leave around 10:30am to go help his grandpa out today. Now I'm just bein lazy and still need to shower and I have to hang all my clothes up today. Not sure if I'm doin anything else but yea, ttyl!