Bathing Suits

[liloompaloompa]

I hate trying bathing suits on!!!! It always gets me depressed!!! I tried some on today and I thought that I looked like crap and I thought about all my friends who are butt skinny and basically just ran outta the store crying. I hate this! Why can't I be blessed with a fast metabolism?? I'm short and fat, basically. I have to buy the "short" type jeans in like a huge size to fit me. I could buy the "regulars" at a normal size, but they are way too long! I'm never ever swimming or hot tubbing with a guy! I have been crying for the last hour. I'm gonna stay a virgin my whole life, because I would be ashamed to have a guy tap this. I mean I can just see me having sex or doing something sexual with a guy and him going "OH MY GOD! WHAT THE HELL IS THAT?!" or "OH MY GOD THATS DISCUSTING!" or something along those lines. The only way that I could ever be skinny is too work out an hour a day for the rest of my life, but I'm sorry. I would like to eat what I want and not have to worry about working out everyday, so I guess I'll have to live with it. I'm just so fat its not even funny. I looked at myself in the mirror and I like literally starting sobbing. I wish I could be one of those people who are fat, but don't care and think that they are skinny. I'm never going swimming again. Bottom line. So no one invite me over to swim or hot tub it cuz I won't go.

Homework is a drag and I'm so behind and everything is due tomorrow and all I wanna do right now is cry! If I don't get at least a C+ in geometry I get my computer taken out of my room and that is gonna suck so bad so I'm trying my hardest. I better get off here so I can try to do at least some of it.

Dani