"everythings changing, everywhere i turn, all outta my control...."
do you ever feel lost sometimes?.... completely right now... i feel like im not really living my own life... like im just watchign someone else live it for me. its like i have no motivation anymore. I kno i need a job desperately bad.. but does it look like im looking very hard? and that makes me mad at myself. I need to get things around with school soon.. i keep putting it off.. i use my not feeling good as an excuse to sit inside all the time and not call frends.. not go anywhre... i sleep... i feel depressed a lot... iono.. im slippin again.. i need to get back in gear and callin ppl n crap and o stuff.. lol.. now time to clean cars.. JOY!