its been a long time
hello:
its been a long time. I dont even know where to begin. i guess my relationship is better a lot better then wherever it was last. its my life thats upside down now.
I'm fat. 166 lbs of fat. i never throught i'd be this disgusting.
I doing bad in school. I cant concentrate, I dont know how to study. Thinking about my fatness takes up all my time. Its taken control of my life.
I tried w/ a personal trainer but, i personally didnt see ne change. I kno i dont eat all that much. i eat almost the same. i kno im no gluton or ne thing, i just dont kno how to change it.
i tried getting help. i dk if its worked... i think the problem is more than any one could help.
I feel like theres something inside me not letting me succeed. Not wanting to. Not willing to.
Why am i not motivated at all? I suffer so much like this ... i cry everytime i look at myself in the mirror. it hurts me to go shopping... its like i cant b happy ne more.
and schools going the same way. What am i doing w/ life?! GOD knows? i guess only time will tell.
i supposed thats all for now.
I'm watching fat ppl get lipo on discovery health... im sure that'll help my selfesteem :-p
:shrugs: Later
its been a long time. I dont even know where to begin. i guess my relationship is better a lot better then wherever it was last. its my life thats upside down now.
I'm fat. 166 lbs of fat. i never throught i'd be this disgusting.
I doing bad in school. I cant concentrate, I dont know how to study. Thinking about my fatness takes up all my time. Its taken control of my life.
I tried w/ a personal trainer but, i personally didnt see ne change. I kno i dont eat all that much. i eat almost the same. i kno im no gluton or ne thing, i just dont kno how to change it.
i tried getting help. i dk if its worked... i think the problem is more than any one could help.
I feel like theres something inside me not letting me succeed. Not wanting to. Not willing to.
Why am i not motivated at all? I suffer so much like this ... i cry everytime i look at myself in the mirror. it hurts me to go shopping... its like i cant b happy ne more.
and schools going the same way. What am i doing w/ life?! GOD knows? i guess only time will tell.
i supposed thats all for now.
I'm watching fat ppl get lipo on discovery health... im sure that'll help my selfesteem :-p
:shrugs: Later