Nov 16, 2004 16:35
So today was the day I said goodbye to Becca. It was so hard. Just being st school was difficult. I pretty much spent the whole time in guidance, talking with crisis response people.It helped.
Her service was beautiful. Nothng less than amazing, and she deserves nothing less than that. There was a picture of me and her from homecoming up on the picture board thing, and i cried. I got up to talk in front of everyone. I just felt like I owed that to Becca. I'm gonna miss her so much.
Words cant express what she means to me. Im never goin to forget her. Im afraid that I'm goin to dwell on this like I did with Sean. I just feel sorta numb. Like nothing is gonna fase me. Im physically there just not mentally.I miss her.