tomorrow is new years eve...ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh! where did the year go?
There was one thing I forgot to write about before. I had a reality check on Wednesday night and it wasnt a good one. My brother and I were talking about my mom and her health. I told him that I feel that she is a lot sicker when out of town relatives are around (i.e. brother and aunt). He said that he believes she is sick and getting really bad off. Then he tells me the reason he made sure to be here is because he doesnt think she will be here next Christmas. REALITY CHECK!!!!! Damn that hit me out of nowhere. Its finally sinking in. It sucks. I just lost my grandmother. I have so many things left to do in life and its bad enough she wont be there to see it. Now my mother is going to miss it all! Who will I have left other than my siblings and father who is in and out of my life. Im sure for big things he will come around like my wedding and when I have kids but wont be there any other time. My grandparents are gone..this just sucks. Okay Im done rambling. Plus Im getting teary eyed and thats the last thing I need with all this work in front of me. *sigh*
~Nicki
~Nicki