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this always happens to me..i have gotten used to it..i knew this would happen eventually and i should have prepared myself for it but didnt.i am so attached now and i dont want to lose either of you.i love u both soo much..i cant imagine life without u all in it.why do i have to choose?..i keep leaning back and forth on what is the best thing to do..i hate this..i really do.u have no idea how i feel and i dont expect u to understand.this is one of the hardest things ive ever had to do and its killing me.i just want to be happy again..i miss that.i hate being stressed..letting people down..lieing..loosing trust..crying..i hate it all.something has got to change.i want to fix everything but i am sure its too late for that now.i have already screwed things over.