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so i never know what to think... me and metta are talking... and we are talking about hooking up this week... the thing is in the last 8+years we have never followed through, even to to the point of being naked in a hot tub together and still not... drives me crazy cause I so would, because I trust him... and I so could use it, just break me from this mind set I have been in... but yeah... i just never know what to think... what does one think when they talk about fucking someone for close to ten years yet both are too chicken shit to actually do anytihng... ugh.. kill me now...