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I have a lot on my mind. My thyroid tests came back abnormal which I knew they were but still. My surgery is in 6 days & I am really nervous about it. I totally put my foot in my mouth last night. As Darryl & I were laying on my bed acting like he was sleeping so I wouldnt tickle him...I told him 'its not nap time its play time' LOL! Ummm yea...my head went straight to the gutter. It does that a lot. He started to laugh & then Matha had to say something (she was on the comp) I know this is just another part of my personality he is seeing...I got instantly quiet & then we talked about it & he said if I ever offended him he would tell me & he wouldnt get mad...cuz I dont know anything unless he tells me you know. But I felt like shit for a while about it. I love Darryl so much already & I want to tell him but havent. I dont want to scare him. So after this big mess I got myself into he just grabs me & kisses me. When he looks at me its like he is telling me he loves me just not out loud. I definitely did not look/feel pretty yesterday considering he came over at 1130 & I just had enough time to get dressed & brush my teeth. I wish I woke up next to him everyday. I am missing him right now. I am a girl who is completely in love with her boyfriend. Im done thinking.