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As of right now my mouth doesn't hurt so wahoo. But when it does wow here come the vicodin! I have a slight fever. Just don't feel that great. I couldn't get that lucky. Plus my mood isn't the best either.
I am in dire need of prayers. My faith is lacking. I spent the whole night crying & praying till 6am then I came downstairs (Mumsie knew I had been up all night crying) & slept til like 11. Stress yes some, okay it's lots. I'm trying to do everything I know to do. Hell, it has me eating, crying, sleeping, going out etc. Nothing is working to keep my mind off shit. Yes, okay everyone Alex is leaving for Iraq tomorrow I get it you don't have to remind me or tell me how to deal with it!! The damn Gov. just sucks! I am stronger than I know. I will get through this. I have no other choice. In my own way & timing I will 'deal with & get over' this. *sighs* For now, all I want is 1 short but sweet phone call tonight before he goes over to that wretched country.
My dreams have been horrible & scattered lately. Not again not good. I guess, I was sleeping & Mumsie had on the news something about an Army soldier from MI getting killed in Iraq, it sent shivers down my spine. I don't remember any of it like I said I was asleep. Jamie & her lovely life is whole different entry. But now I must go to 20 Somethin!
*Note to self: Remember to breathe!
I am in dire need of prayers. My faith is lacking. I spent the whole night crying & praying till 6am then I came downstairs (Mumsie knew I had been up all night crying) & slept til like 11. Stress yes some, okay it's lots. I'm trying to do everything I know to do. Hell, it has me eating, crying, sleeping, going out etc. Nothing is working to keep my mind off shit. Yes, okay everyone Alex is leaving for Iraq tomorrow I get it you don't have to remind me or tell me how to deal with it!! The damn Gov. just sucks! I am stronger than I know. I will get through this. I have no other choice. In my own way & timing I will 'deal with & get over' this. *sighs* For now, all I want is 1 short but sweet phone call tonight before he goes over to that wretched country.
My dreams have been horrible & scattered lately. Not again not good. I guess, I was sleeping & Mumsie had on the news something about an Army soldier from MI getting killed in Iraq, it sent shivers down my spine. I don't remember any of it like I said I was asleep. Jamie & her lovely life is whole different entry. But now I must go to 20 Somethin!
*Note to self: Remember to breathe!