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today sucked... i had a really big fight with my brother today and he hit me really fucking hard a few times.. he went crazy. it all pretty much started cause he took my dads car cause his isnt working and picked me up from kaiser. i needed to get some money from my grandma and he was pretty much demanding that i get him at least $20, which i found rediculous because my dad left it for me and my grandma and never said a word about giving any money to my brother.. so.. i was trying to set shit straight but he got hella pissy and i got pissy in response. he started to talk shit so i told him to just leave me at my dads cause i didnt wanna deal with his shit. my grandma asks me why he has the car and if he should even be driving it and tries to get the keys from him.. that turns into her, her friend and me trying to steal the keys from him while hes yelling at us in spanish and hit me. i went inside to call the cops but he followed me in and tried to take the fone from me and hit me in my nose and it bled a little.. at that point i was in too much emotional turmoil to even continue that shit and i went to my room with the keys to the car and cried.. i cry way too much i think.. at least like once a month and especially when its cold.. so anyways.. he left, i tried calling my mom a million times but no luck, then i called my aunt and she picked me up.. so now im at her house.. i really wanted to see adam today.. like throughout this whole ordeal i was just thinking about how i could be with him.. god im pathetic.. im such a fucking lovesick ass puppy.. and i realized that none of this would have happend if my therapist hadnt gotten food poisoning and had to cancel my appointment with her.. god.. luck just wasnt on my side today..
i hate the people who make the world fucked up.. their everywhere..
i hate the people who make the world fucked up.. their everywhere..