sooooo . . .
uhm swiss cake rolls are possibly one of the best foods ever created ; )
I've been very hyper today & it's weird. Perhaps I'm just excited about rainbow. or maybe it's just easier to go from one extreme to the next. I guess it's better to be this way than the exact opposite though. I don't know what the hell has been wrong with me lately. well actually I do know & I know what would make me feel better . . . but most of that seems to be out of my reach right now. I'm not sure why it's so hard for me to talk to people about everything . . . I guess cause I feel like the things that are making me this way right now are really kinda trivial and stupid & I really should just stop but I can't ahhhhh. I'm so fucked up it's ridiculous. dah. It's weird though how u don't realize how well ppl know you . . . but I suppose when it's this bad they can't help but notice something's wrong. I appreciate though that u guys care so much, even if I don't act like it . . . & I feel like shit even more cause I'm not letting u help me. I'll come around . . . I'm sorry.
Side note--so I'm putting together music for this slideshow picture thing my dad's doing for my Grandpa's surprise 90th bday, & I thought I needed like 20 min., so I've been like ripping my hair out trying to find good stuff . . . good thing I'm smart & I only need 10 min. dah. ah well that means I'm done ; )
Can't wait to use my fuzzy monkey stickers. ; )
I've been very hyper today & it's weird. Perhaps I'm just excited about rainbow. or maybe it's just easier to go from one extreme to the next. I guess it's better to be this way than the exact opposite though. I don't know what the hell has been wrong with me lately. well actually I do know & I know what would make me feel better . . . but most of that seems to be out of my reach right now. I'm not sure why it's so hard for me to talk to people about everything . . . I guess cause I feel like the things that are making me this way right now are really kinda trivial and stupid & I really should just stop but I can't ahhhhh. I'm so fucked up it's ridiculous. dah. It's weird though how u don't realize how well ppl know you . . . but I suppose when it's this bad they can't help but notice something's wrong. I appreciate though that u guys care so much, even if I don't act like it . . . & I feel like shit even more cause I'm not letting u help me. I'll come around . . . I'm sorry.
Side note--so I'm putting together music for this slideshow picture thing my dad's doing for my Grandpa's surprise 90th bday, & I thought I needed like 20 min., so I've been like ripping my hair out trying to find good stuff . . . good thing I'm smart & I only need 10 min. dah. ah well that means I'm done ; )
Can't wait to use my fuzzy monkey stickers. ; )