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I got an A in WRT 102.
Studying for my finals is REALLY REALLY REALLY hard. Hard to concentrate, but even harder to care.
Things with Aaron are the same, only I think my hopes are getting up too much. He is thinking, we are hanging out a ton, and I guess I would classify us as apart but talking. I don't really see why we would NOT get back together, IF he grows up and stuff---acknowledges his feelings, realizes what he wants in life, finishes playing around. We are still getting along wonderfully for the most part, there is still attraction, and he is still the only person that I can 100% be myself around.
His friend Ashley has some girl calling her and telling her she's a bitch-slut. I told him maybe he needs to realize what type of person has SEVERAL girls who do not know each other AT ALL thinking she is a bitch-slut, tries to talk romantic to an engaged guy while she has a boyfriend, and plays "friends" for 8 years without ever even THINKING about coming to visit you.
But he has to realize all that on his own. Part of the growing up business. We'll see what happens. I tried signing up for eharmony.com, just to see, as part of the "Could I even get over this?" experiment and it said that I am ummatchable by their system. Le sigh.
Also, my family is officially here. Makes me feel nervous and sick to my stomach. I have a whole life here that they just aren't a part of really (which is probably not the best thing int he world) and I just don't feel like dealing iwth it. This is like Audra-world, I'd like it to stay that way. I certainly do NOT want to talk about things with Aaron and I, because if I say that we're talking, suddenly everyone will think I'm staying because of that, if I don't say it, I'm lying, I don't know, blah!
Studying for my finals is REALLY REALLY REALLY hard. Hard to concentrate, but even harder to care.
Things with Aaron are the same, only I think my hopes are getting up too much. He is thinking, we are hanging out a ton, and I guess I would classify us as apart but talking. I don't really see why we would NOT get back together, IF he grows up and stuff---acknowledges his feelings, realizes what he wants in life, finishes playing around. We are still getting along wonderfully for the most part, there is still attraction, and he is still the only person that I can 100% be myself around.
His friend Ashley has some girl calling her and telling her she's a bitch-slut. I told him maybe he needs to realize what type of person has SEVERAL girls who do not know each other AT ALL thinking she is a bitch-slut, tries to talk romantic to an engaged guy while she has a boyfriend, and plays "friends" for 8 years without ever even THINKING about coming to visit you.
But he has to realize all that on his own. Part of the growing up business. We'll see what happens. I tried signing up for eharmony.com, just to see, as part of the "Could I even get over this?" experiment and it said that I am ummatchable by their system. Le sigh.
Also, my family is officially here. Makes me feel nervous and sick to my stomach. I have a whole life here that they just aren't a part of really (which is probably not the best thing int he world) and I just don't feel like dealing iwth it. This is like Audra-world, I'd like it to stay that way. I certainly do NOT want to talk about things with Aaron and I, because if I say that we're talking, suddenly everyone will think I'm staying because of that, if I don't say it, I'm lying, I don't know, blah!