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I don't deserve to be walked on and treated like I'm nothing.
I try so hard to make him happy, and no matter what I do it just isn't good enough. I'm not good enough.
Do you know how hard that is to face? How hard it is knowing that all that you are just isn't good enough?
It hurts so much. Rips my heart in two.
I don't want to feel inadequate. I want to feel like I matter and that I'm important.
Is that so much to ask?
I thought I deserved respect, love, fairness, equality. I guess I thought wrong.
I'm just not enough...or maybe I'm too much.
Not pretty enough, not nice enough, not caring enough.
Too overbearing, too sassy, too me.
So not only am I unhappy with him, now I'm unhappy with myself.
I thought I had something real to offer. Something good, something solid.
But maybe I shouldn't doubt myself so much. Maybe it's NOT ME.
But I'll keep blaming myself because I don't know what else to do.
I keep telling myself to stop letting this affect me so badly, but I can't help it.
Love is a VERY powerful emotion...to some people, anyway.
I really thought I meant something. I thought it was real. I thought...
the Love was there.
I try so hard to make him happy, and no matter what I do it just isn't good enough. I'm not good enough.
Do you know how hard that is to face? How hard it is knowing that all that you are just isn't good enough?
It hurts so much. Rips my heart in two.
I don't want to feel inadequate. I want to feel like I matter and that I'm important.
Is that so much to ask?
I thought I deserved respect, love, fairness, equality. I guess I thought wrong.
I'm just not enough...or maybe I'm too much.
Not pretty enough, not nice enough, not caring enough.
Too overbearing, too sassy, too me.
So not only am I unhappy with him, now I'm unhappy with myself.
I thought I had something real to offer. Something good, something solid.
But maybe I shouldn't doubt myself so much. Maybe it's NOT ME.
But I'll keep blaming myself because I don't know what else to do.
I keep telling myself to stop letting this affect me so badly, but I can't help it.
Love is a VERY powerful emotion...to some people, anyway.
I really thought I meant something. I thought it was real. I thought...
the Love was there.