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today....i am faced with a difficult decision...
my mother has all of a sudden decided that she wants to go to regionals. however, no more than two weeks ago, she said that she didnt want to waste the money on a hotel if i'm not competing. since i was told that i wasnt allowed to go to regionals, i decided that i would go to happenning...actually, i promised that i would, if i didnt go to regionals.
now, i have always wondered what goes down at happenning, and was told that it would be a good experience for me...and i must say that i am quite curious to see what it's all about...plus i think that i should get in good with God, considering the events of last weekend.
the thing is that they are on the same weekend. and i am pretty sure that morgan is going to make it to nationals, and i really wanna be there for that bc i have known her forever and she deserves to do well for once....but then again, nothing is ever certain, especially when it comes to gymnastics...anything could go wrong. and my mom isnt sure if she will be able to go bc my great aunt has some luncheon thingy...but mummy says "i would like to go"...and im pretty sure that she told mrs. ross (one of my old people friends) that we wanted a room. it wouldnt be a big deal to me if there was some way i could see how everyone was doing, but i know they take your phones away from you at happenning, and i can't not know how my girls are doing...
i really dont want to let my teammates down...but is it really letting them down when i feel like they dont care about me anymore? and i sure as hell dont want to break my promise to emily, especially bc i feel already bad that she is pissed at me...yeah, i wanted to cry after she basically yelled at me on the phone today...but gymnastics is my life, well it WAS. i really dont know what to do, i think that i should keep my promise bc i dont think it matters to my team if i go or not...plus, I PROMISED
but if i say that i am going to happenning, my parents will think that i dont care about gym anymore and they will say, "why dont you just quit?" i hate it when they say that...
my mother has all of a sudden decided that she wants to go to regionals. however, no more than two weeks ago, she said that she didnt want to waste the money on a hotel if i'm not competing. since i was told that i wasnt allowed to go to regionals, i decided that i would go to happenning...actually, i promised that i would, if i didnt go to regionals.
now, i have always wondered what goes down at happenning, and was told that it would be a good experience for me...and i must say that i am quite curious to see what it's all about...plus i think that i should get in good with God, considering the events of last weekend.
the thing is that they are on the same weekend. and i am pretty sure that morgan is going to make it to nationals, and i really wanna be there for that bc i have known her forever and she deserves to do well for once....but then again, nothing is ever certain, especially when it comes to gymnastics...anything could go wrong. and my mom isnt sure if she will be able to go bc my great aunt has some luncheon thingy...but mummy says "i would like to go"...and im pretty sure that she told mrs. ross (one of my old people friends) that we wanted a room. it wouldnt be a big deal to me if there was some way i could see how everyone was doing, but i know they take your phones away from you at happenning, and i can't not know how my girls are doing...
i really dont want to let my teammates down...but is it really letting them down when i feel like they dont care about me anymore? and i sure as hell dont want to break my promise to emily, especially bc i feel already bad that she is pissed at me...yeah, i wanted to cry after she basically yelled at me on the phone today...but gymnastics is my life, well it WAS. i really dont know what to do, i think that i should keep my promise bc i dont think it matters to my team if i go or not...plus, I PROMISED
but if i say that i am going to happenning, my parents will think that i dont care about gym anymore and they will say, "why dont you just quit?" i hate it when they say that...