...and there are just some things you'll never know
How come these thoughts keep running through my mind over and over? Do I really feel this way or is it just the way things are right now thats making me think this is how I feel? And what if this is how I felt all this time? Why is it so hard for me to just tell you all of the things i've been meaning to tell you? And why does it always work out that in the end, things are never the way they are meant to be? ....The people who deserve the greatest things the LEAST get them, and those who deserve (and want) those things never do. Maybe i'm just jealous, or selfish, or maybe i'm just too blind to see that this will never be.
If you have enough common sense, you'll figure it out. And if you do, tell me how you feel (if you care like you say you do). And if you can't figure it out, then well I guess you'll just never know....
ps. Last night when I helped one of my good (I think) friends out on something that's really important to them, I realized that in general...when it all comes down to the end- it doesn't matter how you feel about people, if they don't feel the same way you do then it's worthless. I'm so sick of always being nice to people (certain people in particular) but yet no one stops to really think about it. It just made me feel MUCH better knowing that for once something that I did for someone (esp you) was actually appreciated, and I know it wont just be forgotten about the next day. I think we all just take too much for granted.
I'm done being depressed now. meh