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yea, I had to drop all my classes because I got stressed out and started ignoring them. I'm mad at myself but I can't dwell on it because then I'll just spend time beating up on myself instead of progressing. I also have catching up to do with wedding planning fortunately work is becoming less crazy for a week...
I'm starting to feel worn out by the fact that I don't know how busy I'll be with work until midway through the proceeding week. I've resigned myself that I can't find a better paying job, but I'll keep looking. I've asked for a raise because I'm basically a manager and not getting paid for it. They say it's not because I don't deserve it but it's not in the budget right now. I understand that and see it but in the mean time I'm being pushed to my limits in stress and I don't even have that much to show for it. Despite my distaste for the situation I'm making an effort to manage better. I know the way I'm doing things isn't the best way. I have no experience or training after all. So I'm trying to read up and work with other methods. Which will be more work and stress at first but I'm hopping in the end I'll have a better handle on things. I don't like having to go though this extra effort when I'm being paid a cook's wages. I know though in the end its for the best. I wish I could find a job that wouldn't put me in such a frustrating situation.
I'm starting to feel worn out by the fact that I don't know how busy I'll be with work until midway through the proceeding week. I've resigned myself that I can't find a better paying job, but I'll keep looking. I've asked for a raise because I'm basically a manager and not getting paid for it. They say it's not because I don't deserve it but it's not in the budget right now. I understand that and see it but in the mean time I'm being pushed to my limits in stress and I don't even have that much to show for it. Despite my distaste for the situation I'm making an effort to manage better. I know the way I'm doing things isn't the best way. I have no experience or training after all. So I'm trying to read up and work with other methods. Which will be more work and stress at first but I'm hopping in the end I'll have a better handle on things. I don't like having to go though this extra effort when I'm being paid a cook's wages. I know though in the end its for the best. I wish I could find a job that wouldn't put me in such a frustrating situation.