Nevermind

[lilmommy18]

"It's like a kiss on the cheek
A kiss that tears open and bleeds"

I'd tell you the truth, but I'm too scared of what you would say.

One day I'll say it...

But only when I'm willing to end our friendship.

Because what I've had to say can be interpreted in a couple different ways.

I know it will hurt.
Me. Just me.
What else is fucking new?

I'm so scared of you.

You have more of me than you know.

It's common.
Does it matter?

I don't even know what to say anymore.
So I've stopped saying anything at all.

I just know how it feels.
Like nothing else...ever.

What do you want?
Should I make myself completely alone for a chance just to end up with absolutely nothing?
I won't.

I'm moving away...
But I'm not burning all of my bridges just so you can't say anymore that there is something in the way.

I know how it will go....

Staring down into my lap.
Eyes filled with tears.
Voice shaking.
Expecting the worst.
(Probably getting the worst)

Say what you want.
Say nothing at all.

This is how it is.

This is my last entry into a Live Journal.