What a day!
So yea my day has been pretty rough. I mean i have been ahnging out with pat all day long. It is really hard to get over a guy when you see him everyday. I mean He isn't vene the same guy I met last semester. He has been really down lately. I hate seeing him like that too.He is such a sweet heart and to see him not smileing hurts me. I mean he goes on walks all the time and he just sit's and stares like he is thinking or something. It sucks because he isn't the hyper smiley pat the I met last semester. But I try and make him smile as uch as I can when I am around him so. But yea I dunno it is just really hard to be around him when he is like that because I want him to talk to me. I wish I could get back with him. I mis the kisses and hug's and holding his hands and stuff like that. I mean I thought I finally found someone that I could actually be with for a while. I mean it has only been a couple of days but I miss it so much. I Wish I could turn back time. I would change so many things. i mean we would talk about so much more when we went to the beach. I mean the first time we hung out we clicked. i mean I really liked him before but shhh.. lol I mean the fist time we talked I thought he was a sweet heart and I wanted to get to know him. thats why I gave him my number. I mean I don't just give my number to anyone. I mean he was so cool. and he even 2wayed me like three times the weekend after I gave him my number which went t show me that he did like me. I mean yea.. and when we finally hung out it was so much fun. I mean I got to meet some of him pool buddies and stuff. I mean we just had fun then we went to walmart and had even more fun. Then we went to the beach and we kissed and It was so awesome! I've never felt like that when I first kissed a guy! It was so awesome. then I ruined it because he was standing on my foot. lol but yea I can't talk about him anymore because I am crying hard enough as it is. so I g2g peace outide.. leave me some love!