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Lately I've had a feeling that my mind's made up what I wanted. Yesterday I went to dad's work to help him with a party they were having for the company. We bbqed and stuff, it was fun. Some of the local cops showed up and got them some food... so did some of the 911 dispatchers. None of us were complaining.... I mean there was plenty to go around and they work with the cops everyday. There's so much that they do for the community and no one really pays attention to it. They don't only give out tickets and stuff like that. Some are actually really decent people. Hell, I've gotten out of plenty of trouble from them.
Anyway, like I was saying. My life seems to have chosen the path it wants. I've gotten more affectionate with one of my friends. No, we aren't dating. My friends seem to think we'll end up that way, but I don't see it happening. I've almost got my poetry together too. Hopefully when I get that book out it sells decently. Sometimes I feel like my sanity's slipping though. I know it's not, but it's kinda like I want it to. to lose myself in a feeling I haven't felt in years. Yet, it being something more than it ever was. Know what I mean? Wow, what a feeling it'll end with. Although I still see it being crushed and all life ending afterwards. I am happy to admit though, the depression in my life has decrease 3 % in the past 2 days. It's not much I know... but atleast it's a little, right!?!?!?!
Anyway, like I was saying. My life seems to have chosen the path it wants. I've gotten more affectionate with one of my friends. No, we aren't dating. My friends seem to think we'll end up that way, but I don't see it happening. I've almost got my poetry together too. Hopefully when I get that book out it sells decently. Sometimes I feel like my sanity's slipping though. I know it's not, but it's kinda like I want it to. to lose myself in a feeling I haven't felt in years. Yet, it being something more than it ever was. Know what I mean? Wow, what a feeling it'll end with. Although I still see it being crushed and all life ending afterwards. I am happy to admit though, the depression in my life has decrease 3 % in the past 2 days. It's not much I know... but atleast it's a little, right!?!?!?!