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Man! Parties like these can be fun. Christal, Sam and Holly came into town so i threw a party after the madrigal dinner. At one point I had about 15 people in my unclean, end of production house. lol. They didn't care and we all still had fun. Chris was great about it. He noticed I was kinda stressing out because my mom and I were not getting along and she was yelling at me in front of all of my friends, he went and got pizza and soda for me. He also noticed I needed some help and he helped me keep everyone pretty much in my living room upstairs. He really helped me out.
He and I also had a kind of heart to heart conversation. I really needed it. Although he told me he still liked me and I didn't need that, I did at the same time. He tried getting all my pain out. He looked and me from across the room and asked me why I block. he was looking into my eyes just like the way he used to. I asked him blocking what. He told me eyes are the window into the soul, why do you block. I broke down. He wanted me to tell him everything that was bugging me or ever has bugged me. I couldn't bring myself to do that though. When I tell people everything, I feel vulnerable. Although, what I did tell him kinda helped. I have to thank him again. I remember why I went out with him. When I started bawling he took me in his arms and I just couldn't stop. He and I were really close and I was afraid he was going to try to kiss me but he didn't and I appreciated it.
I hope everyone had fun at my house because I know I did. Yay for ddr. lol. Thanks for all who came over. love ya'll.
He and I also had a kind of heart to heart conversation. I really needed it. Although he told me he still liked me and I didn't need that, I did at the same time. He tried getting all my pain out. He looked and me from across the room and asked me why I block. he was looking into my eyes just like the way he used to. I asked him blocking what. He told me eyes are the window into the soul, why do you block. I broke down. He wanted me to tell him everything that was bugging me or ever has bugged me. I couldn't bring myself to do that though. When I tell people everything, I feel vulnerable. Although, what I did tell him kinda helped. I have to thank him again. I remember why I went out with him. When I started bawling he took me in his arms and I just couldn't stop. He and I were really close and I was afraid he was going to try to kiss me but he didn't and I appreciated it.
I hope everyone had fun at my house because I know I did. Yay for ddr. lol. Thanks for all who came over. love ya'll.