the tears caused the incisions that left the scars which are my reminder of you...
oh god that was way emo!! soooo yahhh...been hanging out with sammy more often, time enjoyed. haha...welllll last night...
sammy adam and andy were supposed to come over and stay the night cuz they dont have school today and me and kim werent gunna go to school today, but obvisouly we ended up going....well we call them and i dunno the thought was that they were going to ditch us AGAIN, cuz they made plans over ours and whatever and well kim got mad, reasonably, and yelled at sam, then i called sam back adn we talked and i told him we could go out there and so we ended up goin out there at around midnight, haha my mom told us to be home by 1 so we were actually going to be home by 1 but we ended up coming home at 3 am.
interesting night....so i understand now why im the quiet, observitive one when i go hang out with people and groups. and i also understand now why i really dont like girls. i mean my friends are girls, i just dont like haning out with more than 3 at a time....meh whatever..wellll
adam was rather drunk and everyone was pretty effed and i actually saw a diff side of sam last night, indeed a moral side of him, he wasnt really his "bouncy" self..but i really didnt have a problem with that, i actually have more respect for him, actually seeing that side..i guess it was more of an aggravated side i dunno, but it just goes to show that not EVERYONE can be happy and go lucky all the time. now im not saying he was boring in any means, not at all, actually i found him rather interesting, and for once i reallly wanted to intiate conversation, instead of waiting for him. i dont know, maybe i am growing to like the kid....maybe, i still here that hes a player, and i dont need to be played. im done being lush so now being played isnt one of those "forget it" things, its childish and i dunno, i just dont want to be lush i want to wait things out kind of, not wait things out..just not rush into things with only hopes...
but anywaysssssssssssssss haha got off the subject...so yahhh he was really cool last night, regardless that the tension in the air was high, i still had fun. so i didnt talk like AT ALLLLL but i really had nothing to say, i really had NO ambtition to say anything, i dunno i didnt like that girl, soo therefore i guess i felt inferior and decided not to say anything cuz she wasnt worthy to know who i am. haha call it concieded but its true. she was literally trying to show off...if you were there the thing that wouldve popped in your head is "serioulsy some people shouldnt have the advantage of giving away milk!" orrr "jesus christ shut this bitch up, cuz shes being realllly gayyyyyy and a really big whore, leave the poor guy alone. shes pathetic for trying to be bad and take advantage of a guy who drunk beyond his ghord cuz SHE KNOWS she cant have him otherwise, cuz shes nothing but a hoe." haha yah seriously! she was all fake ditzy like so she could convince someone or something to give her some...i just really hate how people dont have respect for themselves or others that are in the room that have to put up with the way they act. "come here adam let me tell you a secert with my tongue" haha ok..so yah if thats not the milk than i dont know what is....this is NOT shit talking..necessarily....its just the truth of how one percieved another for the first time...yahhhh but her friend that came was really nice... i didnt mind her at all. she was in control...thats it..that girl needed to gain some self control! i dunno i need to stop talking about that part...
but anyways i guess the night wasnt so bad. i mean i enjoyed it highly and i wouldnt mind doing that again tonight for a little longer and little less hoes..haha sorry but everytime she asked the guys "how come we dont hang out ..we need to hang out more wheww" alll i thought in my head is "GET REAL!!! look at you...your a fluezy! dumb. ANNOYING. " and ect. ahhhhh ok so you think im exaggerating a little much buuuttt in sams garage thingy is black lights and you could fuckin see through her damn shirt...and she didnt care...i mean if i came to someones house with a shirt you could see through (not that i would) but if i did..and there were people there i didnt know nad are meeting for the first time..i would cover up and be moral...
gahhh i dont think i should really be typing anymor eim getting really carried away with that girl...kim should be more pissy with it than i am...cuz she was literally trying to ruin kims night..i saw it in her eyes everytime shed say something slutty to adam...shed look over at us to see what we would do...and then everytime kim was talking to adam like normal she would call his name and say something GAYYYYY omg....see im done..
haha anyways...today i need to take some pictures of landscape and old shit...maybe kim will wanna go on a hunt for some antique thing to photograph..
AHHHH IM GETTING AN ENLARGER AND A 23 PIECE DEVOLPING KIT FOR 232.95!!! not bad at all..everything i need for my little darkroom aka the bathroom..haha o well im getting one:)
oh yah last night adam said i could photograph him,,i really wanna do some good shots today ill take a couple for my assingment and thent he rest ill just do good shots..
I NEED TO GO TO BONNAROO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! SERIOULSY!!! BOB DYLAN!! MAROON5! i would just absoultly dieee..i love them both..god do i love them.. i kinda hope that bob doesnt play with the band..i really dont like it..well i do..but not as much as him solo..haha sorry
whewwwwww soccer game today..gotta go take pictures of that... im so pro! its not even funny..then i think either demotte or sammys house tonight...im kinda leaning more towards sammys simply cuz i dont know..i have alot my mind to be meeting new people..you know? im looking out for them..haha cuz when i have alot on my mind and i meet new people they get the wrong impression of me i guess..i more secluded and not talkative..and i dont laugh..serioulsy the only words i mumble are yahhhh...and i guess and i nod my head haha thats not kaity! shit..(truthfully...and its not cuz its sam and the rest of them..cuz demotte is cool too...buuutttt i also wanna kinda be closer to home cuz my mom is pretty pissed at me:/)
done.
peace. THIS IS WAY LONG I APOLOGIZE!!1 HOUR AND 7 MIN TILL SCHOOL IS DONE...for the weekend..ahah i wonder if raka ever went to her house this morning or if shes still passed out on my living room floor..
i need a cigarette..actually i need a whole pack cuz i feel bad bummin of those kids...merr
sammy adam and andy were supposed to come over and stay the night cuz they dont have school today and me and kim werent gunna go to school today, but obvisouly we ended up going....well we call them and i dunno the thought was that they were going to ditch us AGAIN, cuz they made plans over ours and whatever and well kim got mad, reasonably, and yelled at sam, then i called sam back adn we talked and i told him we could go out there and so we ended up goin out there at around midnight, haha my mom told us to be home by 1 so we were actually going to be home by 1 but we ended up coming home at 3 am.
interesting night....so i understand now why im the quiet, observitive one when i go hang out with people and groups. and i also understand now why i really dont like girls. i mean my friends are girls, i just dont like haning out with more than 3 at a time....meh whatever..wellll
adam was rather drunk and everyone was pretty effed and i actually saw a diff side of sam last night, indeed a moral side of him, he wasnt really his "bouncy" self..but i really didnt have a problem with that, i actually have more respect for him, actually seeing that side..i guess it was more of an aggravated side i dunno, but it just goes to show that not EVERYONE can be happy and go lucky all the time. now im not saying he was boring in any means, not at all, actually i found him rather interesting, and for once i reallly wanted to intiate conversation, instead of waiting for him. i dont know, maybe i am growing to like the kid....maybe, i still here that hes a player, and i dont need to be played. im done being lush so now being played isnt one of those "forget it" things, its childish and i dunno, i just dont want to be lush i want to wait things out kind of, not wait things out..just not rush into things with only hopes...
but anywaysssssssssssssss haha got off the subject...so yahhh he was really cool last night, regardless that the tension in the air was high, i still had fun. so i didnt talk like AT ALLLLL but i really had nothing to say, i really had NO ambtition to say anything, i dunno i didnt like that girl, soo therefore i guess i felt inferior and decided not to say anything cuz she wasnt worthy to know who i am. haha call it concieded but its true. she was literally trying to show off...if you were there the thing that wouldve popped in your head is "serioulsy some people shouldnt have the advantage of giving away milk!" orrr "jesus christ shut this bitch up, cuz shes being realllly gayyyyyy and a really big whore, leave the poor guy alone. shes pathetic for trying to be bad and take advantage of a guy who drunk beyond his ghord cuz SHE KNOWS she cant have him otherwise, cuz shes nothing but a hoe." haha yah seriously! she was all fake ditzy like so she could convince someone or something to give her some...i just really hate how people dont have respect for themselves or others that are in the room that have to put up with the way they act. "come here adam let me tell you a secert with my tongue" haha ok..so yah if thats not the milk than i dont know what is....this is NOT shit talking..necessarily....its just the truth of how one percieved another for the first time...yahhhh but her friend that came was really nice... i didnt mind her at all. she was in control...thats it..that girl needed to gain some self control! i dunno i need to stop talking about that part...
but anyways i guess the night wasnt so bad. i mean i enjoyed it highly and i wouldnt mind doing that again tonight for a little longer and little less hoes..haha sorry but everytime she asked the guys "how come we dont hang out ..we need to hang out more wheww" alll i thought in my head is "GET REAL!!! look at you...your a fluezy! dumb. ANNOYING. " and ect. ahhhhh ok so you think im exaggerating a little much buuuttt in sams garage thingy is black lights and you could fuckin see through her damn shirt...and she didnt care...i mean if i came to someones house with a shirt you could see through (not that i would) but if i did..and there were people there i didnt know nad are meeting for the first time..i would cover up and be moral...
gahhh i dont think i should really be typing anymor eim getting really carried away with that girl...kim should be more pissy with it than i am...cuz she was literally trying to ruin kims night..i saw it in her eyes everytime shed say something slutty to adam...shed look over at us to see what we would do...and then everytime kim was talking to adam like normal she would call his name and say something GAYYYYY omg....see im done..
haha anyways...today i need to take some pictures of landscape and old shit...maybe kim will wanna go on a hunt for some antique thing to photograph..
AHHHH IM GETTING AN ENLARGER AND A 23 PIECE DEVOLPING KIT FOR 232.95!!! not bad at all..everything i need for my little darkroom aka the bathroom..haha o well im getting one:)
oh yah last night adam said i could photograph him,,i really wanna do some good shots today ill take a couple for my assingment and thent he rest ill just do good shots..
I NEED TO GO TO BONNAROO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! SERIOULSY!!! BOB DYLAN!! MAROON5! i would just absoultly dieee..i love them both..god do i love them.. i kinda hope that bob doesnt play with the band..i really dont like it..well i do..but not as much as him solo..haha sorry
whewwwwww soccer game today..gotta go take pictures of that... im so pro! its not even funny..then i think either demotte or sammys house tonight...im kinda leaning more towards sammys simply cuz i dont know..i have alot my mind to be meeting new people..you know? im looking out for them..haha cuz when i have alot on my mind and i meet new people they get the wrong impression of me i guess..i more secluded and not talkative..and i dont laugh..serioulsy the only words i mumble are yahhhh...and i guess and i nod my head haha thats not kaity! shit..(truthfully...and its not cuz its sam and the rest of them..cuz demotte is cool too...buuutttt i also wanna kinda be closer to home cuz my mom is pretty pissed at me:/)
done.
peace. THIS IS WAY LONG I APOLOGIZE!!1 HOUR AND 7 MIN TILL SCHOOL IS DONE...for the weekend..ahah i wonder if raka ever went to her house this morning or if shes still passed out on my living room floor..
i need a cigarette..actually i need a whole pack cuz i feel bad bummin of those kids...merr