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hmmm....what an interesting week indeedio. James came down on Saturday, but I don't think my parents were that taken to him. The age difference is a big bug bear for my mam. I think she found him a little overbearing? My dad didn't even talk to him; but that's just dad. He's a misrerable bugger. Daniel thought he was a bit of a bullshitter, taling very highly of himself etc. He's a lovely guy, and we get on really well, but i know how my mam feels. I mean, if I had a daughter who was 19 seeing a 27 year old guy, I'd be a bit worried too. But he rang me today, and suggested that if I wanted to be friends for a while, while we get to know each other a bit better, then that would be fine. So that's what we're doing now. I'm fed up of zooming into relationships without knowing the person from Adam, and then finding out what they're really like 5 months down the line and thinking "er, why do I like you, again?". I just want to get to know him as a friend, rather than a "boyfriend", as I think I'd value him more as a person than just someone who I kiss and cuddle. Knowing someone deeper is what I need. He understood anyway, but it does bother me about the age-thing, I must admit. I really would like someone to like me who's round about the same age; 20 - 21 is fine. 27 is an age where you would probably find yourself wanting to settle down and having kids; I'm not ready to settle down and breed. He's a lovely guy and all, but I think we're worlds apart. He has a daughter (!!) been in the army, and seen the world. I've yet to see my world, yet to find myself, so I think I need to take some time out from relationships and discover myself before discovering blokes. I mean, I've had like 5 months "off" in the last two and a half years from relationships; I was seeing Dani for 8 months, then saw Simon for three months. Two months after that, there was David, then three months after, Phill. I've had no time to think about where my life is going, what I'm going to do, or why I want to do it. Uni's next year, and I hope to get a job soon. I couldn't hold a relationship down with someone who lives in Cardiff and works all day aswell. When would we see each other? Meh, I dunno...I'm feeling really philosophical today. WTF!!! Helllllllppppp!