I wish i was special....
same old same old.
thats what my life has become lol.
the same arguments about money. my mother ranting to my brother, and my brother walking out and being a dickhead.
pfft. im fed up with this family. jesus.
me and dad are stuck in the middle as usual because mam is shouting, not TALKING to dan, and dan gets all arsey and fucks off. he can go out every night of the week on the piss, i cant, dad cant, mam cant, he does what he wants, when he wants, without bothering about anyone else. i love him to bits, but he annoys me sometimes. its like he doesnt care about this family. we're slipping into the old thompson-habits and he dont care that we're literally skint. he spends £50 on a new t shirt, mam feels guilty about spending that on the weekly shop! he is just so selfish. he hates it here, wishes he could move in with his mates, but would they let him stay there for free? i dont fuckin' think so, matey. ARGH!
i cant get my hair done tomorrow, because mam cant afford to have it done. i offered to pay for her, but no, ive gotta wait another week to have it done. fucking hell, ive saved up for 2 months now, and its really pissing me off. not much to ask. i drop everything when she calls me to go to somerfields for her, to go out with her in the car and get her fags. fucking hell woman.
but...bless her, shes my mother and i love her. i watched beaches the other day and it really upset me, because a little girl loses her mother in it. i dont know what id do if i lost her. she's my left arm :oS
i also have this fear of being alone; when my parents have gone, ill only have whoever i marry, daniel will have gone his own way. ill have noone to worry about me. sounds selfish, but i dont want my parents to die :( i look at my dad sometimes and i get so overwhelmed at how much i adore him! (sounds dodgy, but piss off lol) and i dont want to lose them.
there are only two things that are guaranteed in life; change
and death
. morbid, huh?
lol ill stop ranting now about my not-so-normal family. gay brother, moany mother, and weird dad, including moi, the jobless messed up human being. ha-ha
thats what my life has become lol.
the same arguments about money. my mother ranting to my brother, and my brother walking out and being a dickhead.
pfft. im fed up with this family. jesus.
me and dad are stuck in the middle as usual because mam is shouting, not TALKING to dan, and dan gets all arsey and fucks off. he can go out every night of the week on the piss, i cant, dad cant, mam cant, he does what he wants, when he wants, without bothering about anyone else. i love him to bits, but he annoys me sometimes. its like he doesnt care about this family. we're slipping into the old thompson-habits and he dont care that we're literally skint. he spends £50 on a new t shirt, mam feels guilty about spending that on the weekly shop! he is just so selfish. he hates it here, wishes he could move in with his mates, but would they let him stay there for free? i dont fuckin' think so, matey. ARGH!
i cant get my hair done tomorrow, because mam cant afford to have it done. i offered to pay for her, but no, ive gotta wait another week to have it done. fucking hell, ive saved up for 2 months now, and its really pissing me off. not much to ask. i drop everything when she calls me to go to somerfields for her, to go out with her in the car and get her fags. fucking hell woman.
but...bless her, shes my mother and i love her. i watched beaches the other day and it really upset me, because a little girl loses her mother in it. i dont know what id do if i lost her. she's my left arm :oS
i also have this fear of being alone; when my parents have gone, ill only have whoever i marry, daniel will have gone his own way. ill have noone to worry about me. sounds selfish, but i dont want my parents to die :( i look at my dad sometimes and i get so overwhelmed at how much i adore him! (sounds dodgy, but piss off lol) and i dont want to lose them.
there are only two things that are guaranteed in life; change
and death
. morbid, huh?
lol ill stop ranting now about my not-so-normal family. gay brother, moany mother, and weird dad, including moi, the jobless messed up human being. ha-ha