feeling shitty
I told mr calmer today i want to quit orchestra. So far i quit the advance orchestra. Im not dedicated enough. Mr calmer just asked one small question and than it escalated into this 30 minute lecture on how i should stay in orchestra. I felt so shitty, i couldnt even look him in the eye. I knew if i did i would cry, no one ever sees me cry. .ever. He was saying how i could play it in college symphony. I looked at him and said flat out that after high school i probably will never play violin again. Mr calmers face just drooped. I could see his eyes watering. After i talked to him i asked if we were finished talking and left. I hate this, i really do. I didnt mean to hurt anyone but i did. I started the day bad and if i keep it up i will end it on a bad note.
Atlanta Georgia
sally and i playing with our star wars pens
Nate and Ryan @ the coke factory
I just miss those days