I am the worlds biggest nerd. and i'm ok with it.
I've been doing some serious thinking lately, and some things have been getting me down, but tonight I guess I sort of had a revelation. I spend a lot of time waiting for people to reach out to me, and give me something I'm hoping for, or help fulfill some need in me, but I'm rarely satisfied. and it seems that a lot of people share in my dissatisfaction with life, in the sense that I know a lot of people who are depressed, or down, or something along those lines. I think we're all guilty of spending a lot of time just dwelling in unhappiness and feeling sorry for ourselves, or atleast I know I am. but tonight, our Koinonia topic was friendship, and it helped me really reflect on some things. I could go into a long explanation of all of this, but it basically just comes down to the fact that you only get what you give. If you reach out to others, others will reach out to you. If you give love, it will come back to you tenfold. I am guilty of getting caught up in my life and my worries, and not giving enough back to those that I care about. I've been feeling down and confused, and holding back a lot because I'm afraid of getting hurt. but if I spend the rest of my life doing that, I'll be alone for the rest of my life, and I'll miss out on a lot.
SO, if you made it this far, thanks for listening. you are probably one of my friends, so I just want to tell you that I love you. I really do. and you have made my life better in some way, even if it was just a tiny way, and I'm really grateful for that.
so yay. I love you guys :)
yeah....my gayness has reached an all-time high. fear not, the cynical Lauren that you know and (hopefully) love will probably be back soon enough. but until then.....
::HUGHUGHUGHUGHUGHUGHUG::
and Happy St. Patty's Day!
<3 Laur
*But when the night is falling
and you cannot find the light
If you feel your dream is dying
hold tight
you've got the music in you
don't let go
you've got the music in you
one dance left
this world is gonna pull through
don't give up
you've got a reason to live
can't forget
you only get what you give*
SO, if you made it this far, thanks for listening. you are probably one of my friends, so I just want to tell you that I love you. I really do. and you have made my life better in some way, even if it was just a tiny way, and I'm really grateful for that.
so yay. I love you guys :)
yeah....my gayness has reached an all-time high. fear not, the cynical Lauren that you know and (hopefully) love will probably be back soon enough. but until then.....
::HUGHUGHUGHUGHUGHUGHUG::
and Happy St. Patty's Day!
<3 Laur
*But when the night is falling
and you cannot find the light
If you feel your dream is dying
hold tight
you've got the music in you
don't let go
you've got the music in you
one dance left
this world is gonna pull through
don't give up
you've got a reason to live
can't forget
you only get what you give*