if i knew before hand
If i knew before hand..
would this happen? the pain and lonelyness would we feel that? if i could change the pass i would. if i could atleast change a few things in the passed this wouldn't be the future we have now.
Before you went away..
before you went away things weren't like this. it was worst. i didn't know how to act. i ruined your life. i put you in a possition you didn't want to be in. i thought that i loved you more then anything in this world. i was the happest person alive i had you the man of my dreams. you showed me so many things that i never knew existed. i loved you for that. you listened to me and you took up every empty space in my body and filled it with the huge amount of love that i only read in fariy tales.
The tragedy..
you left me becasue of my childishness. you tried to get over me. you still helped me out. you wanted to get back together. you wanted space also. understanding..why YES it is. i realized how much i thought that i loved you and it ended up to be double the original and so much more. i couldn't let you out of my life. i had to be with you. you are the hugest part of me. i couldn't let it happen. i didn't want to push so hard cause i didn't want to loose you. but i didn't want you to do the things you were doing.
The moment that took my breath away..
you came back. you couldn't stay away. you needed me like i needed you. the perfect couple. the deepest love. the most looked up to relationship. on the outside. the joy the fullfillment. feelings that have never been felt. you came back. the love is so much stronger so much mature. we suffer yes. but we make do with it. its a struggle but we squiggle out.
we are the Passed..
we are the Present..
we are the Future..
WE are James and Erica
i LOVE you