i think i forgot to say....
I'm Sorry.
needed to come back to the begining.
me and her were once like her and i are now. no one else compared. he was my best guy friend for the last 3 years. and not on and off, but everyday. i wish one day he would call me. im sorry for that one day. but i ment every word i said. so many things i miss. so many things remind me of being a part of that. it was sad to call. everyone, even her. not me. i tried to hold on while at the same time, i tried to grow up. i should have known it isnt possible to do both at the same time. now, it makes me cry. if only on the inside. for the only thing i knew that brought me love. and the only thing i pushed away from myself. i guess i will never know if i was ment to stay in that circle, or if i was right by leaving it all behind. but i do know that i will miss each of them every day that i go without them. im forgotten yet not forgiven. grown apart, but not grown up. i left it all with intentions of not wanting to have it all back. i found my soulmates. i lived the life i was searching for. i have felt the things i was trying to reach. now, i cant have any of it. just takin away. im not sure what any of this means. im not sure how any of thsi will turn out. but i do know that nothing will ever be the same again.
.sorry.
needed to come back to the begining.
me and her were once like her and i are now. no one else compared. he was my best guy friend for the last 3 years. and not on and off, but everyday. i wish one day he would call me. im sorry for that one day. but i ment every word i said. so many things i miss. so many things remind me of being a part of that. it was sad to call. everyone, even her. not me. i tried to hold on while at the same time, i tried to grow up. i should have known it isnt possible to do both at the same time. now, it makes me cry. if only on the inside. for the only thing i knew that brought me love. and the only thing i pushed away from myself. i guess i will never know if i was ment to stay in that circle, or if i was right by leaving it all behind. but i do know that i will miss each of them every day that i go without them. im forgotten yet not forgiven. grown apart, but not grown up. i left it all with intentions of not wanting to have it all back. i found my soulmates. i lived the life i was searching for. i have felt the things i was trying to reach. now, i cant have any of it. just takin away. im not sure what any of this means. im not sure how any of thsi will turn out. but i do know that nothing will ever be the same again.
.sorry.