damn thinking ...
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so after talkin to my lovely brother .. i realize that i can never do anything right . NO he didnt mean it like that.. but in a nutshell i need to be careful with the things i do && say pertaining to a certain person. just becuase of the fact that if im not hes gonna end up getting hurt .. again . && its gonna by my fault . again .
sucks right ? uhh idk wut to do . && the thing is i KNOW hes reading this right now.. cuz hes nosey .[ hi mattthew .. stop being so damn nosey. im fine toothpaste . dont ask about this cuz i wont tell u a thing. =) ]but regardless idc .. lets continue shall we. i hate this feeling of stupidity . feeling that i can never do anything right with him or say anything bcuz everything i say or do is gonna hurt him. it sux. im sry ok? wut do u want me to do.. wut havnt i tried? if there is something im missing can SOMEONE plllleeeaaseee tell me cuz its driving me crazy .
the hurt sux like a mother. that feeling of a ur heart shattering into a bazillion peices ? yup thats the one .. why i have it. idk but i do .. i hate feeling like i disapoint ppl. && that i hurt ppl. cuz i dont want to.. i never have the intention to ... never. && its so shitty when i do. && all i wanna do is cry . but i cant .. cuz crying doesnt solve anything.. but it does help. although crying may be a sign of weakness idk .. u gotta cry sometimes u know? but uhhh .. the amount of times i cry it should be illegal .
but its not all my fault. i get hurt a shit of a lot to. more than mike knows ... & it hurts. its a feeling of not wanting to leave or do anything. jsut sit & mope.. && thats not me at all . i dont like being sad or hurt. its not me. im a happy go lucky kid right ? right .
sooo whyyyyyyyyy do i always have to be in for a world of hurt ?????
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so after talkin to my lovely brother .. i realize that i can never do anything right . NO he didnt mean it like that.. but in a nutshell i need to be careful with the things i do && say pertaining to a certain person. just becuase of the fact that if im not hes gonna end up getting hurt .. again . && its gonna by my fault . again .
sucks right ? uhh idk wut to do . && the thing is i KNOW hes reading this right now.. cuz hes nosey .[ hi mattthew .. stop being so damn nosey. im fine toothpaste . dont ask about this cuz i wont tell u a thing. =) ]but regardless idc .. lets continue shall we. i hate this feeling of stupidity . feeling that i can never do anything right with him or say anything bcuz everything i say or do is gonna hurt him. it sux. im sry ok? wut do u want me to do.. wut havnt i tried? if there is something im missing can SOMEONE plllleeeaaseee tell me cuz its driving me crazy .
the hurt sux like a mother. that feeling of a ur heart shattering into a bazillion peices ? yup thats the one .. why i have it. idk but i do .. i hate feeling like i disapoint ppl. && that i hurt ppl. cuz i dont want to.. i never have the intention to ... never. && its so shitty when i do. && all i wanna do is cry . but i cant .. cuz crying doesnt solve anything.. but it does help. although crying may be a sign of weakness idk .. u gotta cry sometimes u know? but uhhh .. the amount of times i cry it should be illegal .
but its not all my fault. i get hurt a shit of a lot to. more than mike knows ... & it hurts. its a feeling of not wanting to leave or do anything. jsut sit & mope.. && thats not me at all . i dont like being sad or hurt. its not me. im a happy go lucky kid right ? right .
sooo whyyyyyyyyy do i always have to be in for a world of hurt ?????
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