o mannn =]
AHHH ! ok so this time i come with great news .
ok soooo ... this is just a ' let everything out thing ' just to bable on && on withouth annnoying anyone lol. this is the reason i LOVEEE livejournal .. && the chances of someone reading this are slim to none. or maybe im wrong? lol oh well.. i dont care. lets begin:
i like a boy. yes && im admitting it too lol . ive come to terms with it. wanna know who it iss ???? panos . my grecian hoe. never saw that one coming ill tell u that!!! but its pretty kool. hes SUPER sweet && a gentlemen . we play around alot which is always fun .. && a few serious convos here && there but nothing big yet .. we'll see. im not in any rush at all .. && he knows that. && hes good with it. kool eh? lol ... ahh idk its wierd... but not a bad wierd !!! lol . i cant even talk lol.. when im around him i feel like a dork. cuz i cant talk right. && i dont know what to say. so i end up saying something stupid. or not saying anything at all. wut a dork i knoww !!! lol .. ahh! && he always feels the need to hold me. which isnt bad lol ..i like it . makes me feel .. special. =]
on a contemplative/sad note. mikes grandpa is having difficulties. =[ . mike was upset yesterday .. he says that his grandpa is in the hospital && they cant get him to respond ? hes not dead yet though .. but idk how much more there is u know ? it realllyy sux. cuz there is so little i can do to help .. && its even harder since i cant SEE mike. but i gotta try . he helps me all the time.. time for me to do the same =]
&& dont think i forgot matthew. hes always impossible to forget. hes mad at me. again. why THIS time idk.. but w/e. he wont talk to me either && whenver im busy he gets all ' ok i gtg ne-ways ' or if he IMs me literally the second after he says hi. hes gtg. its a bit fustrating but ok. nothing im not used to. he sent panos a myspace message too . very matt if u ask me. he basically told him to be carfeul with me, && not to hurt me. && to cherish all the time he has with me. YUUPPP sounds matt like to me! but im not mad at him for it.. i just wish he woulda told me before hand maybe? then again i woulda probably said no dont do it . so nvm.. its ok lol. but i know something is bugging him . idk wut though but... time wil tell maybe ?
ok soooo ... this is just a ' let everything out thing ' just to bable on && on withouth annnoying anyone lol. this is the reason i LOVEEE livejournal .. && the chances of someone reading this are slim to none. or maybe im wrong? lol oh well.. i dont care. lets begin:
i like a boy. yes && im admitting it too lol . ive come to terms with it. wanna know who it iss ???? panos . my grecian hoe. never saw that one coming ill tell u that!!! but its pretty kool. hes SUPER sweet && a gentlemen . we play around alot which is always fun .. && a few serious convos here && there but nothing big yet .. we'll see. im not in any rush at all .. && he knows that. && hes good with it. kool eh? lol ... ahh idk its wierd... but not a bad wierd !!! lol . i cant even talk lol.. when im around him i feel like a dork. cuz i cant talk right. && i dont know what to say. so i end up saying something stupid. or not saying anything at all. wut a dork i knoww !!! lol .. ahh! && he always feels the need to hold me. which isnt bad lol ..i like it . makes me feel .. special. =]
on a contemplative/sad note. mikes grandpa is having difficulties. =[ . mike was upset yesterday .. he says that his grandpa is in the hospital && they cant get him to respond ? hes not dead yet though .. but idk how much more there is u know ? it realllyy sux. cuz there is so little i can do to help .. && its even harder since i cant SEE mike. but i gotta try . he helps me all the time.. time for me to do the same =]
&& dont think i forgot matthew. hes always impossible to forget. hes mad at me. again. why THIS time idk.. but w/e. he wont talk to me either && whenver im busy he gets all ' ok i gtg ne-ways ' or if he IMs me literally the second after he says hi. hes gtg. its a bit fustrating but ok. nothing im not used to. he sent panos a myspace message too . very matt if u ask me. he basically told him to be carfeul with me, && not to hurt me. && to cherish all the time he has with me. YUUPPP sounds matt like to me! but im not mad at him for it.. i just wish he woulda told me before hand maybe? then again i woulda probably said no dont do it . so nvm.. its ok lol. but i know something is bugging him . idk wut though but... time wil tell maybe ?