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Ok- it's another day here at work.. i'm sick and had barely any sleep... i'm going to be babysitting my aunts twins tonight also... OH WHAT A DAY ! lol... but im doing it which is what surprises me. I went from being a lazy ass that would be slightly tired and not even go to school. Using any excuse. NOW- its like okay ive got sniffles and a soar throat with no energy, and i woke up this morning and didnt even think to stay home.. i mean yeah i want to, but shit i cant. i need to survive ya know... So ive deffinately matured there. I'm proud of myself man..
UPDATE: things are going slightly off other wise. Grams went to the hospital monday. She has several kidney stones and she didnt call any family members to let them know. She took herself to and from the hospital just so no one would worry about her. I saw her the friday before and she seemed fine. She was a lil upset with me bc i was talking about going home to Yuma for a lil while and she doesnt want me to. Shes afriad of why i want it so bad and that i might not come back.. Shes silly.. yeah ive thought of it. but im trying to stay on the right track of mind so that i do come back to working hard and making money for myself. I do need to get away from my family for a bit though. They are stressing on my life way too much trying to force me into what they see as a happy life for me. I need to decide for my own ya know. and i will. just stop screwin with my mind ya know lol. Owell thats the love of family i guess.
and than my mom isnt helping the matter any less. Shes telling my grams and aunts about the people i was living with there before i came here and making them out to be bad people.. which they are far from being bad, ya know. Yeah so what it was a trailer i was living in.. its not the greatest life in the world, but hey it was better than fighting with my mom and possibly losing a great relasionship with her. I dont want that.
Okay- for those of you that didnt know this. a couple months ago, me n mom were fighting hard core and i moved out. She found my Dad and called him. Hes out in NC. he's married and has three sons all under the age of five. 2 of them are twins... I was totally baffled as well as scared ya know... I didnt get to talk to him bc i wasnt there when she called. He told her that he would call me back that weekend. He hasnt. We think its bc of his wife. She mioght be a lil freaked out and worried about my reasoning for making contact with him. Like i want to cause problems.. no i just want to know my other half. My family history and know who i came from. its only natural to have some sort of interest in that. Right?
IDK.. well i might be going to SC in some time to see my cousins and my aunt thought it would be neat if MAYBE we go knock on my dads door while we are near. So we'll see what comes of that.
Its time to get back to work.. i love and miss you all hope all is well.. MUAH
UPDATE: things are going slightly off other wise. Grams went to the hospital monday. She has several kidney stones and she didnt call any family members to let them know. She took herself to and from the hospital just so no one would worry about her. I saw her the friday before and she seemed fine. She was a lil upset with me bc i was talking about going home to Yuma for a lil while and she doesnt want me to. Shes afriad of why i want it so bad and that i might not come back.. Shes silly.. yeah ive thought of it. but im trying to stay on the right track of mind so that i do come back to working hard and making money for myself. I do need to get away from my family for a bit though. They are stressing on my life way too much trying to force me into what they see as a happy life for me. I need to decide for my own ya know. and i will. just stop screwin with my mind ya know lol. Owell thats the love of family i guess.
and than my mom isnt helping the matter any less. Shes telling my grams and aunts about the people i was living with there before i came here and making them out to be bad people.. which they are far from being bad, ya know. Yeah so what it was a trailer i was living in.. its not the greatest life in the world, but hey it was better than fighting with my mom and possibly losing a great relasionship with her. I dont want that.
Okay- for those of you that didnt know this. a couple months ago, me n mom were fighting hard core and i moved out. She found my Dad and called him. Hes out in NC. he's married and has three sons all under the age of five. 2 of them are twins... I was totally baffled as well as scared ya know... I didnt get to talk to him bc i wasnt there when she called. He told her that he would call me back that weekend. He hasnt. We think its bc of his wife. She mioght be a lil freaked out and worried about my reasoning for making contact with him. Like i want to cause problems.. no i just want to know my other half. My family history and know who i came from. its only natural to have some sort of interest in that. Right?
IDK.. well i might be going to SC in some time to see my cousins and my aunt thought it would be neat if MAYBE we go knock on my dads door while we are near. So we'll see what comes of that.
Its time to get back to work.. i love and miss you all hope all is well.. MUAH