WHY ?

[lilmegaroo]

I DO NOT fuckin understand how someone can continuously go out of their way to do anything and everything to hurt me. ITS BULLSHIT !! I mean they play this role and call themselves your "best-friend" and they decide -oh hey lets just go fuck up their life and make them completely MISERABLE !!- She minipulates you and makes YOU feel bad for what THEY did and then before you know it -SMACK- youre caught in the middle of this mind game they like to play. AND IM SICK OF IT ! For however long now, shes been saying "Lets hang out Meg" but than never bothers to come over or even let me know that hey its not gonna happen. come to find out, the reason shes been pullin her bullshit is because shes SCARED ! which she fuckin should be... If she wants to go off n do.... WHATEVER with MY BOYFRIEND (ex now) GO FOR IT ! Just know that I WILL NOt be around when you need a fuckin shoulder to cry on. Ive done that too much to get paid back with NOTHING IN RETURN ! Im not saying she hasnt given me ANYTHING. I mean she did give me the fuckin problem with Andy didnt she ? I didnt want to go anywhere that night. i said "no no we are too drunk" she says "no no meg we are FiNE !!" so i said "just dont leave me alone with this guy, I cant handle myself right now" "ok babe i promise" she says... but what happend ??? oh hey she left me with him not 10 minutes later so that she could go n FUCK her fuckin boyfriend... what happend to me ??? Oh yeah i passed out n woke up with him on top of me... to make this worse.. HE VIDEO TAPED IT N SHOWED IT TO PEOPLE !! niiiiiiiiiiiice. idk why i kept dealing with her. idk why i didnt stand up for myself. All that i do know is I DONT DESERVE IT ! i made my mistakes. i know that... but what the fuck man ?? i dont get why people feel the need to fuck me over all the time...

YES I AM MAD AND I MAY BE A REAL BITCH RIGHT NOW ! BUT I DESERVE THAT MUCH !!!

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