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Well everything has been going pretty good. Work is ok, just alot of drama that goes on but alot of jobs are like that. Have you ever had a point in your life where everything is going good but theres still a part of you where it feels like something is missing and you just cant be happy but you can't figure out what it is? Yea thats exactly how I feel, but I might have an idea of what it might be.
What I'm about to write is for a certain person, I'm not the type to beat around the bush, so Sarah this is to you. I want to start of saying I'm sorry for whatever I've done thats wrong but most of all I'm sorry for giving you the wrong impression. I don't want you to think that I'm against you or I'm out to get you...after everything that we've been through, you should know by now that those are by far my last intentions. You have to understand how much it hurt knowing that you want me to stay out of your life (well love life, but even though it's only your love life, it still hurts)...Not once, no matter how you felt or what you said, did I ever tell you to butt out or stay out, because your opinion matters to me...and thats what best friends are for, to look after you. I'm sorry If you don't like what I have to say or how I feel, and I know you have to make your own mistakes, but I don't tell you what to do, I give advice and I tell you what I thinks best...I don't want to run your life for you or anything like that. And if it seems like I give you a harder time about things than other people, its because you matter more to me than alot, if not most people and all I want is to see you safe and happy. Remember central...honestly, I would not have done that with just anybody like I did, but you mean alot to me and I would never let anything happen to you, that's why I say and act the way I do. I don't talk shit behind your back, neither does vicki...when we hang out, 95% of the time we talk about guys. I know I already told you this. I also never said I wanted to bitch you out, I don't know where you heard that, maybe you misunderstood. I dont want you to think I'm taking the blame for everything, but I am for some of it cuz I know what I've done thats wrong...so I dont want you to think I'm trying to ruin things for you cuz its the exact opposite, I dont want you to think I'm replacing you cuz that could never happen, and I dont want you to think I sit there and talk shit about you cuz I dont. I'm afraid that were going to drift apart because lately it feels like it, and honestly it scares me. I really don't know any other way to put it, plus i'm tired so I hope it all makes sense. I just want things to be like they use to be because I don't want what happened before happen again. Sarah you are one of my best friends, I love you to pieces and I don't want something stupid like this to break up our friendship...I'm always going to be here for you and I want you to be able to talk to me, whether I agree or not I will still listen and help you.
Well I need sleep so I'm going to bed
What I'm about to write is for a certain person, I'm not the type to beat around the bush, so Sarah this is to you. I want to start of saying I'm sorry for whatever I've done thats wrong but most of all I'm sorry for giving you the wrong impression. I don't want you to think that I'm against you or I'm out to get you...after everything that we've been through, you should know by now that those are by far my last intentions. You have to understand how much it hurt knowing that you want me to stay out of your life (well love life, but even though it's only your love life, it still hurts)...Not once, no matter how you felt or what you said, did I ever tell you to butt out or stay out, because your opinion matters to me...and thats what best friends are for, to look after you. I'm sorry If you don't like what I have to say or how I feel, and I know you have to make your own mistakes, but I don't tell you what to do, I give advice and I tell you what I thinks best...I don't want to run your life for you or anything like that. And if it seems like I give you a harder time about things than other people, its because you matter more to me than alot, if not most people and all I want is to see you safe and happy. Remember central...honestly, I would not have done that with just anybody like I did, but you mean alot to me and I would never let anything happen to you, that's why I say and act the way I do. I don't talk shit behind your back, neither does vicki...when we hang out, 95% of the time we talk about guys. I know I already told you this. I also never said I wanted to bitch you out, I don't know where you heard that, maybe you misunderstood. I dont want you to think I'm taking the blame for everything, but I am for some of it cuz I know what I've done thats wrong...so I dont want you to think I'm trying to ruin things for you cuz its the exact opposite, I dont want you to think I'm replacing you cuz that could never happen, and I dont want you to think I sit there and talk shit about you cuz I dont. I'm afraid that were going to drift apart because lately it feels like it, and honestly it scares me. I really don't know any other way to put it, plus i'm tired so I hope it all makes sense. I just want things to be like they use to be because I don't want what happened before happen again. Sarah you are one of my best friends, I love you to pieces and I don't want something stupid like this to break up our friendship...I'm always going to be here for you and I want you to be able to talk to me, whether I agree or not I will still listen and help you.
Well I need sleep so I'm going to bed