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[lilman1517]

I can't sleep. I hate this. I don't know what to do anymore. I love her but I don't know if she feels the same way. I don't think she wants to be with me. Everyone tells me I need to move on but I don't want to. I want her. I'm so lost... I think about her all the time. What am I supposed to do? How can I just forget about her and move on when she is all thats on my mind? Since the whole ordeal thing only place I have gone is to a football game and bowling other than that I have been sittin home alone... thinking alot... mostly about her... wondering whats shes doing, wondering if she misses me, wondering if shes ok... ya so how do I live without you? ur the one I want to be with, the one I want to hold, the one who knows me like no one else ever will, the one I want to call mine..... I need to lay down. I hate the feeling of being lonely... I hate the feeling of her not needing me like I need her.... I just miss everything about her... I miss everything I did with her.... I just miss everything me and her had.........................

I hate....................
- myself
-not having friends
-being a loser
-what I do to myself
-needing her
-being depressed all the time
-not showing my true feelings
-my life

I miss......
-all times I had with ambur
-ambur herself
-the shores girls
-talking to Tracy,Jodi,and Chandra
-talking to jasmin
-having someone to talk to
-being able to sleep all night
-being happy
-my old friends
-my old house
-my life
-being a little kid
and lastly
I miss just being with Ambur.....

*I will never be as happy as I was with her*

ADZ