For some time now - okay, for a long time, I've been avoiding having to deal with the idea of dead people. ie. that contact with them has been part of who I am.
For part of my life, I had tried to avoid that part of me that is 'sensitive'. When I realised that being anything different would be like losing a limb, I learned to embrace it; or so I had thought. Because there is this thing about the dead that just scares me still. Some people call them earthbound spirits. A rather nice way of saying ghosts, but they are still dead people. Non-corporeal beings might be easier?
Recently, I joined a community, and mentioned trying to face this fear. Oddly enough, through several experiences, I have been, only they've been people I've known. Aside from perhaps a grey shadow, I don't think I've seen or been frightened by anything, actually, except by my own imagination and fears. I wonder if it gets harder as you get older? I hope not.
Though there was the first time I ever had reiki done on me, and a face I'd never seen before appeared clearly in my mind with a message for my friend, who was doing the reiki. I felt out of my depth, risking looking like a fool or upsetting her if I was wrong. To my shock and hers, it was someone she had once known. For a day and a half after that, I was really affected; that was the first time I'd ever had contact with someone I didn't know before. I didn't see him physically, so I've thought, maybe that doesn't count. But I'm reminded that I've had several experiences since of seeing images in the same way.
Tonight, I had an urge to get this book of mine...there was some information on mirrors that I think may be of interest to someone. This happened just a few minutes ago. I opened up the book thinking I'd get to just that page and what stared back up at me instead was this:
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Just how afraid are you?
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That followed was an excerpt on dealing with any fears one might have of the dead because it is a major part of the psychic experience. My first thought on seeing that was "Oh Shit."
I am in constant awe of how I'm being taught, the ways I'm given particular messages. I'll keep working on it, thank you.