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It's only just after 10pm but I'm ready for bed. However, it's been ages since I've posted here and all my thoughts and happenings have been piling up, so I'm making myself play catch up, if even just a little.
Quite a few have been simply thinking of a person or they of me, and then that day or a few hours later, the connection is made. Those always make me smile.
But, and I'm not sure where this is coming from, my own expectations maybe, but there have been days lately where I'm feeling blocked, as though I've lost my ability to sense even the simplest thing, and I start to worry that it's because I've done something wrong and I'm being punished. I know deep down that it's not true...but I hate when it happens. It makes me feel panicked because I'd find it really hard to imagine life without being able to sense things as I have. My desire to develop it further though hasn't been happening, but that is my own fault really, a kind of inner lack of motivation...the old be careful what you wish for fear? Always, I keep taking that deep breath and just let it happen.
Okay, until next time, because I really am f**king tired.
Quite a few have been simply thinking of a person or they of me, and then that day or a few hours later, the connection is made. Those always make me smile.
But, and I'm not sure where this is coming from, my own expectations maybe, but there have been days lately where I'm feeling blocked, as though I've lost my ability to sense even the simplest thing, and I start to worry that it's because I've done something wrong and I'm being punished. I know deep down that it's not true...but I hate when it happens. It makes me feel panicked because I'd find it really hard to imagine life without being able to sense things as I have. My desire to develop it further though hasn't been happening, but that is my own fault really, a kind of inner lack of motivation...the old be careful what you wish for fear? Always, I keep taking that deep breath and just let it happen.
Okay, until next time, because I really am f**king tired.