what a day!
this has been a very interesting year ALREADY!!! monday we were late to school cuz adrian forgot her bridge at home so i tried turning around by their turkey shed and i got stuck in the mudd. thank god for the guy across the street and his truck! he came and pulled us out :)) and then yesterday we were late to school again because we didnt wake up till 7:45ish and then we hit a patch of black ice and i almost ended up in a ditch. and luckily today we werent late.
we had our bowling meet today against twin tho. i did horrible. molly and mr groves pissed me off because they kept telling me that pretty much we needed to get our heads outta our asses so i just did worse then because i was ticked. it wasnt a good match. and then me and spaz got into an arguement on the bus because i asked her a question and she wouldnt answer me. yeah i guess it was a stupid thing to get irritated over, but she makes me feel like im required to tell her every thing but then when i ask her something its like she doesnt have too. i dunno... adrian if you are reading this im sorry i snapped. it just hasnt been a good day. and i was just trying to be honest with you.
ADRIAN- i seriously think new years eve has only helped our friendship more! i still feel shitty about the way i found all that out about u but its helped me understand you so much! i know you are scared that you are gonna make bad decisions when you do get to make your own decisions but seriously i think your best decision is to make your own decisions. after seeing the real you it amazed me at how well you play this other person. do i often wonder which you you are giving me? yeah. all the time. i know you are afraid of what people may think of the REAL you but guess what?! it shouldnt matter. worry about making yourself happy instead of what others think. you have been doing so good! dont give up! i truelly care and the last thing i wanna see is you give up. but i wanted to let you know that i will walk with you through all of it. every step of the way. i just wanna see you happy!!! really happy! not just a pretend happy! i wont give up on you! because no matter how many times you may say you arent you are worth it! ur worth all the worries and long talks. everything! i have been thinking alot lately about our second chance and seriously i dont know where i woulda been today if things woulda been dealt with differently and u hadnt of given me that second chance. i wont lie. im terrified for the day that you ship off. june 13 may be the last day we ever get to see each other again and im terrified! i will once again lose my best friend! and seriously i dont think i woulda of decided to go back to maine if it hadnt of been for you leaving. but i dont think i can stay here without you. id prolly go by ur house and cry. our friendship means the world to me!! and i really wish you coulda heard everything i said to you on the bathroom floor. but i dont think i could tell u everything over again. maybe im scared. i dunno. but please know that if u EVER need help with ne thing i'll be there in a second!!!
JAY- if your reading this i'm worried about you! so PLEASE email me or something!!!
well i'm being told i need to get off of the computer. so hopefully i will talk to you guys all later. sorry if i bored you with my thoughts! oh yeah! i also got an email from one of my ex boyfriends from hagerman today. talk about feeling weird!! specially considering he wants 2 go and chill sometime. we'll see how that goes. oh geez!
oh and guess what!?!?!
JORDANS A VIRGIN!!!! hehe!
*lilly*
we had our bowling meet today against twin tho. i did horrible. molly and mr groves pissed me off because they kept telling me that pretty much we needed to get our heads outta our asses so i just did worse then because i was ticked. it wasnt a good match. and then me and spaz got into an arguement on the bus because i asked her a question and she wouldnt answer me. yeah i guess it was a stupid thing to get irritated over, but she makes me feel like im required to tell her every thing but then when i ask her something its like she doesnt have too. i dunno... adrian if you are reading this im sorry i snapped. it just hasnt been a good day. and i was just trying to be honest with you.
ADRIAN- i seriously think new years eve has only helped our friendship more! i still feel shitty about the way i found all that out about u but its helped me understand you so much! i know you are scared that you are gonna make bad decisions when you do get to make your own decisions but seriously i think your best decision is to make your own decisions. after seeing the real you it amazed me at how well you play this other person. do i often wonder which you you are giving me? yeah. all the time. i know you are afraid of what people may think of the REAL you but guess what?! it shouldnt matter. worry about making yourself happy instead of what others think. you have been doing so good! dont give up! i truelly care and the last thing i wanna see is you give up. but i wanted to let you know that i will walk with you through all of it. every step of the way. i just wanna see you happy!!! really happy! not just a pretend happy! i wont give up on you! because no matter how many times you may say you arent you are worth it! ur worth all the worries and long talks. everything! i have been thinking alot lately about our second chance and seriously i dont know where i woulda been today if things woulda been dealt with differently and u hadnt of given me that second chance. i wont lie. im terrified for the day that you ship off. june 13 may be the last day we ever get to see each other again and im terrified! i will once again lose my best friend! and seriously i dont think i woulda of decided to go back to maine if it hadnt of been for you leaving. but i dont think i can stay here without you. id prolly go by ur house and cry. our friendship means the world to me!! and i really wish you coulda heard everything i said to you on the bathroom floor. but i dont think i could tell u everything over again. maybe im scared. i dunno. but please know that if u EVER need help with ne thing i'll be there in a second!!!
JAY- if your reading this i'm worried about you! so PLEASE email me or something!!!
well i'm being told i need to get off of the computer. so hopefully i will talk to you guys all later. sorry if i bored you with my thoughts! oh yeah! i also got an email from one of my ex boyfriends from hagerman today. talk about feeling weird!! specially considering he wants 2 go and chill sometime. we'll see how that goes. oh geez!
oh and guess what!?!?!
JORDANS A VIRGIN!!!! hehe!
*lilly*