Decisions
Who knew that one's life could change in the course of one night, through one decision. No, I don't mean the choice of having sex one night without a condom that gets you pregnant, simply a decision that basically determines your memories for the years to come, as well as your future.I think I have come to a conclusion as of now of which direction to go. After-all there is nothing left for me at Taravella, so what would be the point in staying? Even friends wise I feel that as of right now I am out of the loop of hanging out and having fun and I don't foresee a change of that in the future. Though I wish it were so. Basically I am shooting for program that can enhance my education and my maturity with few consequences to face.
I haven't run at all this week. My mind has been on this separate level that I know running could help with, but it is a matter that I just can't get myself moving the past few days. All I can do is sit infront of my tv screen watching the characters move about, but my thoughts drift beyond the simple show playing and land on the many things occurring in my life at this moment.
When I walk around with my friends through school it has hit me recently that I never feel like I fit in. When I am with one person I may feel just plain stupid, and yet with another my maturity in life issues surpasses them by far. (Not trying to sound like I have a big head.)I think the changes I make for next year will benefit myself in many ways, and those who would have been around me, for then the annoyance of my presence won't be felt, and therefor will no longer be a burden.
I am a dreamer. I dream of life in a way that is indescribable, and love in a way that is untouchable. I dream of days that will never been seen, and hopes that will not be fulfilled.
I haven't run at all this week. My mind has been on this separate level that I know running could help with, but it is a matter that I just can't get myself moving the past few days. All I can do is sit infront of my tv screen watching the characters move about, but my thoughts drift beyond the simple show playing and land on the many things occurring in my life at this moment.
When I walk around with my friends through school it has hit me recently that I never feel like I fit in. When I am with one person I may feel just plain stupid, and yet with another my maturity in life issues surpasses them by far. (Not trying to sound like I have a big head.)I think the changes I make for next year will benefit myself in many ways, and those who would have been around me, for then the annoyance of my presence won't be felt, and therefor will no longer be a burden.
I am a dreamer. I dream of life in a way that is indescribable, and love in a way that is untouchable. I dream of days that will never been seen, and hopes that will not be fulfilled.