uh...yeah ...hey
soooo ......
its been liek ....forever...
and its gonna be liek ...forever again ...im in sooo much shit right now ..
im not even supose to be on the computer right now ...im surprised my mom osnt saying anything to me right now ....so yeah i got myself in sooo much trouble just cuz i cant be a woman and talk to my mom ....
but i hate it cuz i dont want to tell her anything and i hate that she crys ...:( ....
i realized that i mean soo much to her ...sometimes i feel like she doesnt give a crap about me ...she punishes me so i learn ...and honestly if you think about it ...if your parents never cared about you they wouldnt try to talk to you or ground you and stuff liek that ....especially if you know you did soemthing wrong ...like me ...i do stupid things and get im trouble for it and all i do is get mad at my mom and shit ...and i always say i hate her (well...i dont TELL her i hate her ..but ... you know ..) i always feel like i hate her so much and i just wanna kill myself ...or someone ...or run away ...or not eat ...or even never talk again ...but no ...not talking to u mom (or parents)doesnt make anything better ... everytime my mom or dad tries to talk to me about something i've done wrong ...i stay quiet ...i dont say a thing ....but i've realized that just made it worse ...like right now im not telling my mom where my phone is ...i give her the silent treatment ...and i feel she hates me because of that ...but honestly i know she just goes somewhere and starts to cry ...i ahte it ...or i see it in her eyes that she wants to just break down and cry ...i hate that sooo much ... i hate the fact that me , my moms only daughter ...is breaking her heart and i act liek i dont even care ...so people your parens do care ...i dont mean to preach to you guys ...but if you wre in as much shit as im in right now you'd understand ...seriously...or an easier way to not disapoint ur dfam would be to just not always get in trouble all the time ...
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anyhow ...back to teh normal me ...hehe
im really liking this guy named Toni ...hes so awesome and i want to get to know him more...
robin im sorry for all the shit ir going through and i hope everything straightens up ...
sorry if i seemed mad at you i do forgive you but there was just sooooo much shit going on in my head at once and i was worrying and shit wondering how im gonna get my shit back ...
so yeah back to Toni ...i really like you :) hehe
and if you read this which i doubt you will ...i need to see you ASAP cuz my mom is about to kick me out of teh house if she doesnt kill me first :-/...
well i dont know what im gonna do now ...i cant use teh phone ..i cant get on teh computer ...and yeah im gonna die ...lol
im going to palm springs tomorrow ...im glad ...i get to see joseph again since i cant go to his graduation ....cuz im "grounded"o well ....we'll see what happens ...oh yeah omfg ....
my mom is not letting me go to Nobel for summer skool ...i ucking hate this ...
now im gonna be disapointed the whole summer ...knowing that i would be having more fun at Nobel with all my old friends ...now athey're all gonna be disapointed ...i swaer they were all happy whenb i siad i was going there ...
im sorry guys :( i still ove you ....especially Erik, Christina and Michael :( omg im startin to cry i g2g
i live you guys ...and pleas etake my acvice ...you will get in less trouble ...and if your gonnalie ...you better have a good lie guys ..;-) luv ya ....
its been liek ....forever...
and its gonna be liek ...forever again ...im in sooo much shit right now ..
im not even supose to be on the computer right now ...im surprised my mom osnt saying anything to me right now ....so yeah i got myself in sooo much trouble just cuz i cant be a woman and talk to my mom ....
but i hate it cuz i dont want to tell her anything and i hate that she crys ...:( ....
i realized that i mean soo much to her ...sometimes i feel like she doesnt give a crap about me ...she punishes me so i learn ...and honestly if you think about it ...if your parents never cared about you they wouldnt try to talk to you or ground you and stuff liek that ....especially if you know you did soemthing wrong ...like me ...i do stupid things and get im trouble for it and all i do is get mad at my mom and shit ...and i always say i hate her (well...i dont TELL her i hate her ..but ... you know ..) i always feel like i hate her so much and i just wanna kill myself ...or someone ...or run away ...or not eat ...or even never talk again ...but no ...not talking to u mom (or parents)doesnt make anything better ... everytime my mom or dad tries to talk to me about something i've done wrong ...i stay quiet ...i dont say a thing ....but i've realized that just made it worse ...like right now im not telling my mom where my phone is ...i give her the silent treatment ...and i feel she hates me because of that ...but honestly i know she just goes somewhere and starts to cry ...i ahte it ...or i see it in her eyes that she wants to just break down and cry ...i hate that sooo much ... i hate the fact that me , my moms only daughter ...is breaking her heart and i act liek i dont even care ...so people your parens do care ...i dont mean to preach to you guys ...but if you wre in as much shit as im in right now you'd understand ...seriously...or an easier way to not disapoint ur dfam would be to just not always get in trouble all the time ...
~~~~~~~~`~~~~~~~~~
anyhow ...back to teh normal me ...hehe
im really liking this guy named Toni ...hes so awesome and i want to get to know him more...
robin im sorry for all the shit ir going through and i hope everything straightens up ...
sorry if i seemed mad at you i do forgive you but there was just sooooo much shit going on in my head at once and i was worrying and shit wondering how im gonna get my shit back ...
so yeah back to Toni ...i really like you :) hehe
and if you read this which i doubt you will ...i need to see you ASAP cuz my mom is about to kick me out of teh house if she doesnt kill me first :-/...
well i dont know what im gonna do now ...i cant use teh phone ..i cant get on teh computer ...and yeah im gonna die ...lol
im going to palm springs tomorrow ...im glad ...i get to see joseph again since i cant go to his graduation ....cuz im "grounded"o well ....we'll see what happens ...oh yeah omfg ....
my mom is not letting me go to Nobel for summer skool ...i ucking hate this ...
now im gonna be disapointed the whole summer ...knowing that i would be having more fun at Nobel with all my old friends ...now athey're all gonna be disapointed ...i swaer they were all happy whenb i siad i was going there ...
im sorry guys :( i still ove you ....especially Erik, Christina and Michael :( omg im startin to cry i g2g
i live you guys ...and pleas etake my acvice ...you will get in less trouble ...and if your gonnalie ...you better have a good lie guys ..;-) luv ya ....